Confusion

Well, I don't come on here as much, but every time I do, I try to see if some of the things posted on here can help me.
I have been going through sexual issues for a while, from trying to come to terms with my sexual identity, to be sexually self destructive, to incest fantasies. I've been dealing with a lot. I have since come to terms with most of those. Meaning, I like to dress in women's lingerie, dresses, and swimsuits, I am being careful and cautious with my dildo usage, and I'm not going incest crazy on my immediate female family members.
But with those things settled, new ones are taking their places. I understand that with age, your desires and things you like changes. Well, mine have been. I've always when fascinated with transsexuals and transgendered women, I guess the possibility of a woman with a penis is exotic. But lately my interests have gone up, I'm now interested in femme boys, and the possibility of have sex with a boy. But it's kind of like I'm taking the more womanly features and desiring them on a boy, meaning; figure, femme facial features, semi-long to long hair, and behaves/dresses like a tomboyish girl in public.
I've come to the belief that my ideal femme boy lover can only be found in anime.
I'm just confused with these new interests, but I still like women. I don't really know what to make of it all. Especially since I've never had a girlfriend, or have never had sex with either a TS or boy. I'm just confused.