Sex and depression

Mostly I'm just depressed today and hoping somebody will converse.

Anyway... when I was in my 20s, I would masturbate exactly 3 times per week. Any more than that would make me depressed the following day, and any less than that would leave me feeling frustrated.

In my mid 30s to mid 40s, that number decreased to 2 times at best. Then my libido suddenly decreased, and I decided to stop masturbating. Two or three weeks later, I had a mental breakdown and became psychotic.

So then I had no sexual activity for 2 years. Until suddenly I became ravenously horny as though I was making up for lost time except more than 1 time per week would cause depression.

Then 6 months ago, I got sick and I seem to have a detached feeling about sex. Everything functions, but I feel disconnected and indifferent. I continue to get in my 1 time per week, but a lot of times I don't feel like it or I lose interest at the first excuse. Maybe I notice that I need to scrub my toilet, so I stop and scrub my toilet.

I look at videos on youtube that made me aroused 6 months ago, and I feel nothing. It's very strange that it changes so abruptly from time to time.

Anybody else experience these abrupt changes in libido?

Hello x123: No, I can't say that I have experienced abrupt changes in libido. At this point in my life (which is admittedly older) I have none. Along the way I had prostate surgery which pretty-much destroyed what little physical ability I had left. And this, along with my life-long gender identity issues, depression, & anxiety, plus the effects of antidepressants, pretty-much wiped it all out. Personally I glad it's gone... The older I get, the more the whole process just disgusts me...

Thanks, @Skeezyks
When I was younger, I always looked forward to getting old, so I could take the time I wasted on sex and invest it in something more worthwhile. Now that I'm here it's like "wait a minute! I'm not ready to be old yet." It happened so suddenly in my case. It takes a supreme act of will power to summon-up any sexual arousal, but I keep going through the process out of stubbornness. It's hard to explain. The mental part has disappeared while the physical part remains.