[x123]

For the past six months I had been confused by my libido declining. Last week was very stressful for me. I stayed up all night to prepare for a remodeling project in my home/office that threw my life into complete chaos. I started getting mouth ulcers, and finally on Monday I caught the flu. It seems to be gone now, and I am starting to get my boxes unpacked and things put back.

So in the midst of all that stress, my libido seemed to return and was out of control. The experience made me think I should consider myself a sex and pornography addict instead of somebody with low libido. Lots of unlucky things seemed to be happening too. I couldn't understand what was happening, and I felt like I was at the end of my rope.

Somewhere in there, I had a lucid dream. I can't remember the dream now, but I have had dreams like this in the past. It seems like external entities are in my dreams trying to brainwash me, but sometimes I have a lucid dream and I can catch them red-handed and they sort of shrug in embarrassment and leave. I'm not angry at them exactly, but I want to be aware of them, so that I can resist their influence. I have known about them for years. I used to think of them as demons, but now I just think of them as things in my mind that I need to remember are there sometimes.

I feel like I'm making some progress on my life outlook too. I might start a separate thread on those insights. Somewhere in the middle of all that stress, I realized some things that are very helpful to me. I think those things in my mind are related to reorganizing my psychology and making progress. It seems like those things try to stop me from making progress. They seem to draw energy from sex I suspect.

Anyway, I am hopeful

[Skeezyks]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts, x123!

[x123]

Originally Posted by Skeezyks

Thanks for sharing your thoughts, x123!

Thanks, Skeezyks