[Cleo6]

Hi I'm not sure if this sounds weird or not. I was molested as a young child for a couple of months. There are also many times I can not remember where I would of been alone with my abuser but I can't remember anything. I also have lots of blank memories whilst I know the csa was happening. For example all my memories are of it happening in the day but I have no memories of going to bed or anyone putting me to bed. After my abuser left I went through a stage of sleeping on the floor as it felt safe. I have never received oral sex from any of my boyfriend's. They have tried but I've always stopped them from going down there. The thought of receiving it makes me feel sick and I get this big fear going through me. I don't know why I feel like this as everyone one else I know who talk about it loves it but just the thought or talking about it makes me wanna be sick and squeeze my legs together. Is anyone else like this?0

[MidnightSparrow]

Never been abused and I don't care for it. It's a bit too intimate/extreme for a regular Joe to explore... Only with trusted love partner and even than... It's "okay". My Best advice : never do anything sexually you don't feel comfortable doing. Never

[divine1966]

I am sorry you endured abuse and I hope you get help that you need. If you don't want to have oral sex, then don't. I actually never liked it until I've met my husband. So it might change for you but make sure you don't do anything what makes you uncomfortable

[dlantern]

Cleo6,

If you want to make a change then you have to get safe about what it really is. It can be a safe interaction keep working in therapy.......Especially if the guy will care for you and give it to u how you want it

[Anonymous37919]

I don't know. I thought that was a common practice. I know some people might not like performing rimming, as it has obvious health risks, but some enjoy that, just the same.