Crying after masturbation

So I was really horny today so I decide to masturbate to my crush and then after I finished I started crying so hard thinking about how much I loved him and how heart broken I felt it was an intense feeling. I don't know why that happened but it got me thinking about how much I wanted him and after all these months how I still had feelings for him. I also felt very helpless about it and didn't want to feel anymore it was just an intensely emotional thing.

I keep seeing your post, so I finally decided to check it out. I'm sure that was an intense experience, but for your mental and emotional health, I encourage you not to think of him during your self pleasuring. As you see, it leads you to cry. Okay?