I am a zoophile that feels horrible about it, help me

Hello. I am a zoophile that has been one for about 3 years. I don't have any emotional attachment to an animal besides the normal one. I also don't find animals themselves attractive, rather i am attracted to their genitalia (male and female.) I often fantasize about just animal genitals (not really me doing something with them, but just the thought of them.) This is a deep rooted fetish of mine that stems from my childhood. I don't think animals should be abused, i do think it's possible to act on this fetish without abusing the animal, though it I would never do something like that. I can say for certain that I would never act on my fetish around horses or dogs. I'm not even tempted to do that in real life. I just for whatever reason am really really attracted to animal genitals, and i don't really know what to do about it. I am constantly scared, because i know that if people found this out about me, the majority would hate me. I also am not associating myself with the "zoophile community" because the majority of them are horrible people that probably do abuse animals. I am deeply made uncomfortable with the thought of an animal being unhappy, and i would never want to go through something that would make them unhappy. Yes, I am a furry, and i wish that i could just be attracted to anthros, but unfortunately i'm attracted to more. I just don't know what i should do, and was looking for support. thank you for reading.