[Greenleaves]

So I've blocked the guy who wanted to pleasure me the next day to convince me I wasn't asexual. That totally scared me away. Plus, I wasn't all that attracted to him so I guess it wasn't meant to be.

Anyways, this other guy I told the same thing to, but he's OK with the asexual thing. He starts flirting with me and I like it and now I'm pretty sure I'm not asexual.

I'm not very sexually experienced and have had sex maybe a handful of times, but for some reason I start talking about sex a lot around him. Telling him I imagine sleeping with him etc. He naturally like this a lot. LOL Anyways, all the sex talk has been started by me. Some of which include chocolate sauce. LOL

I told him it'll be a long time before I was ready for sex and he seems OK with that. I even sent him my ugly picture and he still likes me.

I'm probably not asexual eh? LOL Am I a slut or something?

Lmao noooooooooooo you are NOT a slut lol you are perfectly normal !

[salukigirl]

you just had to put the 'eh' in there didnt you? lol.

maybe im too science minded, but humans arent asexual. lol. i know you don't mean in the sense that you can reproduce using longitudinal binary fission lol. but still. i think everyone has those feelings in them, just takes the right person to allow you to express them. youre not a slut. having sex a handful of times? nah. youre not a slut, eh. lol

[Lyric]

That's a huge double standard to me. If a guy sleeps with a LOT of women, do you ever hear his friends calling him a slut? Didn't think so...But it falls on women.

You're not a slut, you're just really attracted to him and you're just learning. After all, if you ever do find "the one", you'll have that much more experience for him! ^-^

[Greenleaves]

I think I want to find someone who really loves me. Someone who will wait until we are married or at least engaged before having sex.

The first time I had sex, I thought I was in love, but I guess I wasn't. I'm pretty sure he loved me though. I broke his heart breaking up with him. He just couldn't accept it at first. I bet he would have waited until we were married. It was my idea to have sex, not his. I made all the moves. In the end it just wasn't meant to be. I never grew attached to him.

I'm starting to think maybe there is something wrong with me. Maybe I can't attach to people? I don't know. I worry about this. Anyone who loves me deserves love from me as well.