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You completely don't suck Hallie. Not at all. You haven't facked up anything.

He is the LOOSER! The Virgin thing is a way of saying it's your fault that I can't be with you in a healthy relationship.

He is weak, he will use what you portray as your own weaknesses against you. That is what weak people do. He will try to put you down so that you feel so horrible about yourself because he can see that you do not have the self-esteem to be strong enough right now. So that you feel like you are the bad person for not meeting his needs.

BUT in Reality thats just it, they're HIS NEEDS. NOT YOURS. In a relationship it takes both people sharing and working with one anothers NEEDS. Not just one or the other.

It is damn hard, I know, I was once dating this guy that told me he couldn't tell ppl that he was seeing someone on FB because of this whole elaborate story that he didn't want ppl congratulating him. It was so he could still look single and flirt and cheat, ect ect. Oh and Honey he was ever soooo sweet. Good Looking, Fit, Charming, Charismatic, Spiritually Connected, Had Sense enough to keep a conversation, yadda yadda yadda. He could never plz me though, it was all about him. And when I was in a bad mood towards him, it was like "what was wrong with me today?" "I need to do some work, be happy" Kept me down so he could control the situation.

Hallie you're a Sweetheart, you need to tell him that you are no longer comfortable with the situation at hand and that you would like him to plz stop txting you, that you are no longer interested.

Hallie he never CALLS you. He doesn't even REMEMBER where you live???? HELLO? He meets you in a park, so what that noone can see you with him?? He likes you sooo much that he can't invite you out with his friends and say hey meet _ _ _ _ _ she's really cool.

C'mon girl, you know you are worth soooo much more than that. That you deserve so much.

I stopped responding to hislittle i miss you and kisses texts. he started asking me last time why. i said

"I am treating you as a friend. We are friends."

he got mad lol and said "well i thought at one time you wanted more" OH and then he said...and this is the great part..lol "i was gonna ask you out but now you dont seem interested.' yeah...after knowing for months that i wanted to date him and always saying we couldnt he suddenly wants to after i move on.

i told him" neither of us were ready to date. we agreed to be friends. therefore we have an establsihed friendship."

I made him mad. he told me i am too moody. that my mood toward him changes every day. i reminded him that i had told him im bipolar. my mood changes a lot and its a part of me. i apologized but told him its a part of who i am.

now his myspace says hes frustrated and ready for a change. well. go ahead josh. change. i dont want to be around him anymore at all. im annoyed. hes gonna turn this around on me. I regret most things we did and especially that I sent pictures. my god im an idiot. ive had mood swings lately. do u think its stress from all this or could i have been a lil not so myself during all of this?

I would block him from your life. There isn't any friendship here. If you think there is, it's a controlling one. He's controlling it. Bipolar or not, there will ALWAYS be problems, lots of emotional ones. AND he will make sure their ALL YOUR FAULT. He will run you down till there is nothing left. He needs Help. Thats not your job. It is one that he will have to choose. I wouldn't have him on myspace, Fb,anything, if you start to get threats or on-going txts, like kissy kissy shiat, & were not together bcuz of you, u need to get a parent involved or someone who will take that stance for you. (maybe have them call him) Stay Strong don't give in feeling badly for him,and if you do later on, u can just remember to tell yourself that you've been so strong and it was just a weak moment. doesn't matter how old you are. You may need to have your phone number changed.

I don't want to scare you, he just obviously is a real prick (you never know what someone in this state of mind could do ( he may be ill), and I don't want you to get hurt. (worse than what your heart aches now)



P.S. there is Nothing wrong with your mind these last few weeks.Your mind has been telling you that you're working. Red flags have appeared, and that is most likely why it is an on-going chatter of swinging from Should I or Shouldn't I?

Definately a good call, I don't know that I'd even remain friends with him. As soon as things were not going the way he wanted suddenly you're moody, he was going to ... X.

You're such a sweetie, you deserve so much better.