[SeptemberMorn]

I dreamt I was in a bedroom with two doors. I was very angry and pounding on one door screaming "leave me alone!!" My perp, the grandmother, was trying to get in and I could hear my mom in the background. I went from one door to the other, banging and screaming. Finally, the gm, managed to get the door opened a crack large enough to push a pillow through. I could see her hand in my dream and it was her hand. By then I was screaming "Mother!!" but I never caller my mom that. It feels as if I was calling someone else. In reality, just about that time, my cat jumped on my bed and I smacked him full force with my arm which caused him to dig his claws into my stomach. OUCH!! I was awake! It was almost impossible to stop screaming and growling once I was awake.

Then right before waking up this morning, I had another flashback/dream. I had been behaving rather poorly to my husband yelling catty remarks to him. As it used to be his habit, he got in his Mustang (that he hasn't had in 20 yrs) and roared off. A friend of the family (unknown) came into the house expressing concern for my husband. Soon there were several people in my house and they were talking about what had happened. I didn't want to listen because I was felt terribly afraid and abandoned. (Yes, one of my issues.) I asked them to pray for my husband and one of the women said "We have! Where were you??" I told her I had gone outside at that time. The people continued to talk about finding and bring my husband back but there didn't seem to be much hope. There was more but I don't remember the end. I just know that I woke up with my husband getting back in bed after making our morning coffee.

Why is this coming back after so many years???

Sorry, I don't have any advice for you

[SeptemberMorn]

No worries. Just wish I could stop dreaming. I had another icky dream when I took a nap today. Wonder what I'm going to dream tonight?

[SeptemberMorn]

ARGH! It seems to be a series of dreams all having to do with past issues.

The next dream consisted of me being on the road traveling. I was staying at a friend's house whom I think was moving. There was an unpacked suitcase that disappeared, then some of the smaller contents disappeared. The house was in a mess with everything in piles and crap all over the floor, difficult to get around. At one point, I was packing for a baby; baby clothes, baby socks, baby shoes, etc. I couldn't find something that really needed to go in the suitcase because of the disarray. I kept looking for my suitcase and the more I looked the more my suitcases disappeared. Soon the furniture was gone. Some of my mother's furniture wound up in a storage shed and had been waxed or something because it was sticky. Went back into the house and there was nothing left but the dirt and crap that's left when you empty a room of it's furnishings. Asked to borrow a cell phone to call 911 and instead of numbers, there were pictures encased in your usual milar coverings. No numbers!! Guessing at the position of the numbers, I tried to dial. Got the beeps but no connection. Asked for help from the owner of the phone but didn't get it.

AAAHHHHHHH! Then I dreamed a childhood friend had come to visit and we were sightseeing. We went to lunch and I had lost my money. She bought a sandwich filled with veggies but I couldn't identify them. We lost my car and had to walk for miles to find it. She went back to the Greyhound station and left. I got home to find "my man" (not my husband IRL, not my type, either!) packing up and getting ready to leave. Tried to talk him into staying, almost begged, but he left anyway.

ISSUES: loneliness, abandonment, lack of respect of personal boundaries, helplessness, ANGER! These don't exist in my life anymore! Why are they surfacing again??

[silentandscared]

for me when these dreams and flashbacks return its a sign that need to look at something that havent done or cus something that is round me now is making me think too much agen and only way it can get my attention is too come in my slep and then if kep not luking at it they get harder til l do. soryr that you have this stuf and bad dreams cum bac even though you think it gon and no cum bac it cums to sneak and remind usthen we get scare agen and so whole thing starts agen

soryr we couldnt help more but plese know that we praying for sum peaceful slep and nic dreams to cum too

pat

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{Pat}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Thank you, Hon. You did help with your answer. I need to think about what is happening around me to bring it up again. I haven't been scared in the dreams. Just really, really angry.

Hope your prayers will be answered and I'll have peaceful sleep tonight. Thank you so much for your prayers. They mean the world to me, Sweety.

[wickedwings]

I know what you mean. Lately, I've been having dreams about having another stroke and being a strange medical mystery with a brain lesion. I get this once in awhile. Lately, I've been having more of them. Boy, they are so vivid.

I guess, it's our subconscious that is still dealing with our past issues, even if we are moving forward in life well. It's very difficult convince our subscious otherwise and as a result we have these kind of dreams/flashbacks.

One time, two weeks ago, I had a dream/flashback of something that happened to me when I was a little child. It was a very weird dream. I'm not going to say what happened because it may trigger some individuals. I felt like banging my head on the wall to get that out of my mind for real. I thought I was going to wake up to find myself doing just that - banging my head on the wall. Fortunately, I dreamed that instead of doing that for real. LOL Yeah, it's nuts to have dreams like that.

[SeptemberMorn]

It's weird! I had these dreams like three nights in a row and even when I took a nap and now they are gone as quickly as they came! I'm still not completely sure what triggered them.

I've journaled the dreams, thoughts of possibilities and other feelings, though, so if it happenes again, I'll have some clue as to what is going on. I learned to journal my dreams from when I was in therapy. I have some really weird ones! Not having my cell phone seems to come pretty often lately. That could be some form of "lack of communication"? It sure is frustrating!!