[AtreyuFreak]

I had a dream last night. I'm kinda puzzled about it, but oh well.

I don't remember what order it was in, just that there were two main events:

My chemistry teacher (who's cool, funny, never seen him get mad EVER) was for some reason teaching at my old school. I skipped his class (in the dream; never have in real life) and went out to the back of the school and laid on one of the hills in the grass. He came out and found me and got really really mad; I don't remember if he hit me or what, but I remember saying, "Please don't hurt me!" and being terrified of him.

The second part (or was it the first? o_O) took place inside a building like a school, but it's one that I don't really remember being in. (I'm switching T's IRL, but we don't even know who the new one is, let alone what he/she looks like) My new T worked there, like as a school counselor or nurse or something--I have a strange habit of becoming attached to motherly figures in schools (2 teachers and a nurse so far)--and I was laying down with my head by her lap and talking to her and it was very reminiscent of the movie Sybil and her relationship with her T (which is fitting, because I'm DID, though I don't like that movie). I remember sitting up and looking at her, and it was very comforting (the whole thing) because it was like she was the mother/mother-figure I've never had, since my mother...has her own issues and is always emotionally distant. (My only thought on this is, at least it was a good dream about the potential of a person I've never met! I'm always scared of new Ts....)

[AtreyuFreak]

I suppose I should say that I'd really appreciate feedback, especially from anyone who has any kind of clue as to what it means. I'm a bit...mystified.

[WePow]

Hi Atreyu :-) I think the first dream is showing that you have an internal fear of someone you trust being uncharacteristically upset with you if you actually let down your guard and relaxed around them.

For the second dream, I think that may show how you wish someone would actually listen to you without them thinking you are "acting" ... if that makes any sense based on what you said.

[Bill3]

I'm always scared of new Ts

Is there something about your situation that makes you feel unusually hopeful about the new T? Or that means that you have an unusually strong need for support from a T right now?

was for some reason teaching at my old school

What is the meaning or significance of your old school to you?

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In addition to what you said above, what do you think that the dream could mean? I know that you are puzzled, but it can be helpful to you or to those trying to help for you to talk out your puzzlement.

[AtreyuFreak]

Originally Posted by Bill3

Is there something about your situation that makes you feel unusually hopeful about the new T?

I've seen 10 T's in the last 3 years. I keep getting shuffled around because everyone seems to think they're not qualified enough or my problems would be better handled by someone else. I'm sick of switching T's. I want very much to find one person that I trust, that can help me long term. DID is a rather cumulative disorder, and you can't get much higher up on the T-scale than a DID therapist. I'm really really hoping that the next T will be one I can stay with for a while...

Or that means that you have an unusually strong need for support from a T right now?

This could easily be true. I'm stressed to the max, got a lot of big changes coming up (graduation, moving to a new town, starting a new job, starting college) and I could definitely use the support...

What is the meaning or significance of your old school to you?

My old school is where I grew up. I lived in that town from age 1-16, went to school there from K-10. The town I live in now means very little to me; I don't have many friends here simply because I already have friends back home; I don't want or need anyone to replace them.

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In addition to what you said above, what do you think that the dream could mean?

I agree with what has been said already. That I need someone to trust, and that I'm subconsciously afraid that I'll trust someone only to discover that they're angry, hurtful, and unsafe.