[imatter2]

One of the aspects I hate the most. I never know from one night to the next when I'll wake up, how long I'll be up before I manage to sleep again (IF I manage it at all), all I can count on is too little sleep! But as BNL say, "who needs sleep? Be happy with what you're getting/ there's a guy's been awake since the second world war." Funny song but not terribly comforting... but at least someone "gets it" and put it out there for the world right? Besides at least I can put it on my ipod and get a smile at 2am! And come here and start a topic about hating the randomness of insomnia only to end with a song that is just marginally related and have the post end up all rambly and disorganized - and the rest of you insomniacs will totally understand it anyway

[Purplechick]

I totally get you!! I hate it, so unpredicatable......drives me nuts!!

[imatter2]

Awoke at 12, still up at 2,
the house is still, all others asleep
and so I need to be quiet too
trying not to make a peep

The hives are back and I itch real bad
but if I scratch only pain will be had
and so I grit my teeth in misery
why is there no relief for me?

I'm up and down, trying for sleep
It doesn't come, i want to weep!
Oh look at that, it's nearly 3
should I just go ahead and make coffee?

Who needs sleep anyway?
oh yeah,.... me!

(I sure as Frick hope this isn't God's way of preparing me for another round of infancy!)

[imatter2]

sitting outside this early day I noticed a small swarm of ants on my patio table. Therefore I broke out the bug spray. to my amazement...

One brave ant survived the bug spray
struggling to escape
I admire his determination to live another day
but I'm still going to squish him

[bridgie]

Ahh the life of an insomniac. I love those days after I night of clock watching. 2am 2:23am 315am and so on. I keep trying new things though.

[busiemommie22305]

I was right there with you last night. But I did some homework instead of logging on here.

<<<<Depression: 28>>>>
<<<<Mania: 17>>>>
<<<<Anxiety: 37>>>>
<<<<Sleep: 10 (9 hours)>>>>
<<<<Disorder: Bipolar Disorder (Depressed phase)>>>>
<<<<Journal Subject: Sleeping problems driving me insane>>>>

<<<<Journal Note: I seem to have my days and nights mixed up. I get very tired before it's time for bed, then I can't go to sleep for hours after bedtime has come and gone. I can't go to bed until around 2 and then I would sleep all day if my son allowed me. IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS!!!!!>>>>

Seems like I can't sleep to save my life and it's about to drive me insane! I'm back to wanting to sleep all day and stay up all night. The OTC sleep aids aren't working. I keep telling myself I need to do my yoga and/or mediation, but somehow never do them.

When I try to fall asleep at bedtime I feel like there are bugs crawling all over me. (Which where very well could be because they seem to keep finding a way into the house). Something starts itching - like my back or my feet. My legs become restless or feel like they are about to cramp.

I've snapped at my 5 yr old for trying to wake me up because he wanted breakfast and the TV on. Now we're fighting.

The mood tracker says I'm in a depressed phase. I would agrue I'm in a mixed.

Wish someone would take my son so I could put msyelf into a drug induced sleep for the next 24 hours. Family is great to have when they are there when you need them, but when they aren't

[imatter2]

bridgie, at least I can entertain myself with silly poems - did you know, it's Bad Poetry Day today after all ROFL!! I'm in the works of med change with pdoc, if I'm lucky it'll increase sleep a bit to get off the Lexapro so fingers are crossed (and toes, and eyes, and since my guts are in knots i guess they're probably crossed too...)

[imatter2]

busie - I did some house work too before I logged on here - washed dried and folded laundry to be specific. The layout of our house is such that i can't do much more than that though, dishes are too loud, etc. But when there are zero distractions even laundry doesn't take that long - and you do have to kill the time in between loads after all

[bridgie]

Phrick. I like poems Lol. They gave me lexapro to sleep. Didn't work so well. Then trazadone. Now its rozerem. Says 30 min before bed. Lol sure. Last night I took that and a cpl benedryl as that's supposed to make sleepy. Still up. Mine I'm sure is I'm on the "up side" of the bipolar. Better than being on the "down side" I suppose

[Sultrysorrow]

I feel your pain Phrick, I've been dealing with Insomnia off and on for a very long time. I'm bipolar and currently in the 'manic' phase and have been for the past month. So I'm lucky if I'm able to get two hours of sleep during the night. I've tried every OTC and herbal supplement out there. Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata, Trazodone, you name it if it's off label use is for sleep I've taken it. Even though I run 5 miles a day and am up for over 18 hours. You know the feeling, too tired to sleep.? I've had Lamictal added to my Lithium schedule to balance things out. But some nights I wish someone would just hit me in the head with a bat to knock me out, very frustrating. I cringe at the thought of dealing with this for the rest of my life..