[LiteraryLark]

I had a dream that I was in a town that was a couple cities away from my town going to look at wedding dresses when these two black guys jumped me and wanted to rape me so I ran into a store and was screaming and destroying the store trying to get people's attention but no one noticed me, so I ran outside and tried to flag down a cop who was talking on a cell phone who shushed me and told me not to bother him, then I institutionalized myself so the black guys wouldn't get me, but then the nurses told me they were going to visit me every few hours and they came in and told me I was never going to escape.

That's a scary dream! And I haven't had a nightmare in over a year. A little backstory my family has been in three car accidents within the course of two weeks, two was our fault, so our insurance has skyrocketed each time. Over the weekend, one of my close friends who is bipolar had a manic episode and made me call a suicide hotline. And last night I was looking at a feminist group's website about how women should not be blamed for rape. This might be some insight into my dream.

[Perna]

Hi, Dr.Skipper, I find your dream really interesting. Sorry it was so upsetting.

One of the first things I noticed was the wedding versus rape attempt and that they were black men, your "darker," shadow side? Almost like you are trying to integrate (literally and/or figuratively) the two halves of you. Again, the cop and institution are the exterior/in charge parts of you, how you are in the world, trying to maintain control but your subconscious is not having that?

We know that the wildest and most moving dramas are played not in the theatre but in the hearts of ordinary men and women who pass by without exciting attention, and who betray to the world nothing of the conflicts that rage within them except possibly by a nervous breakdown. What is so difficult for the layman to grasp is the fact that in most cases the patients themselves have no suspicion whatever of the internecine war raging in their unconscious. If we remember that there are many people who understand nothing at all about themselves, we shall be less surprised at the realization that there are also people who are utterly unaware of their actual conflicts.

~ Carl Jung, from: http://psikoloji.fisek.com.tr/jung/shadow.htm

It sounds like in your actual life you are pretty overwhelmed at the moment! If you are "fighting" that, I would try to relax a bit, talk to friends and relatives that have not been part of your recent difficulties and see if you cannot find a little more comfort and support?

[chaselovely9]

Black people in dreams usually represents aspects of your personality that desire things they can't have. Or they reflect a powerful sense of loss.

Rape in dreams usually represents total loss of control over your life.

So these symbols combined sounds like you are trying to avoid something that leaves you feeling powerless and at a loss.