[Mcb4]

So basically, lately I've been really worried about my mental health, I am diagnosed with bipolar but since coming off meds I feel nothing. I don't mean I feel better, I mean I literally feel nothing. No compulsion to get up or go to school, find it hard telling anyone how I feel, or feeling anything for family and friends. Anyway this has been going on since the end of last year, and for the same time I've been having nightmares quite often.

The nightmares are all different but they are usually violent and pretty gross... Although I don't feel grossed out by them. Visions such as being where I grew up as a child, only the place is basically abandoned and messed up, and mute children walk past me, watching me as they eat the bones out of their own knuckles. Or being in my primary school library and having a man come in and scalp women and tell everyone there they are next. And as he scalps the woman next to me I sit there watching, frozen but intrigued.

I don't know why I'm having these and would love if anyone can maybe shed some light on it or at least tell me they get the same thing and I'm not crazy...

I would guess just about everyone has nightmares. I do, lately not too often, thank heavens. I've had some pretty gruesome ones about decomposing bodies and that type of thing. You mention that you feel "nothing", yet your dreams are full of violence. So although you're not consciously feeling emotions, your unconscious is definitely working on something. In the dream the children are mute and in another part you are frozen. I'd hazard a guess that you are holding back some emotions and this is what your unconscious is telling you. Because of the gruesome aspect of the dream, I'd guess that the emotions are somehow unacceptable. Maybe anger?

I'm only guessing here because you asked for feedback. I do a lot of dream work with my therapist, and I find dreams utterly fascinating. I've gotten much better at interpreting my own because of my therapist's help, but I'm only guessing in your case. Maybe someone else will have some ideas.