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Would like feedback: is it a gift or part of being Bipolar II? (This will be long)
For some background, I am not Native American, but I grew up on a Reservation in the Southwest. My Godparents are spiritual tribal leaders who do blessings and other spiritual duties. I have always had very vivid dreams, some were nightmares that were easy to explain, others just normal dreams, but some felt very much like messages or warning of an upcoming event—usually the event would follow the next day, or a death or accident would have happened the same night I had the dream. I would frequently discuss these message/warning dreams with my Godmother, so she could interpret them. She had a job running our local Community Center and I was a lifeguard for the pool, and we saw each other almost daily during my late teen years. She told me I had a gift that worked through my dreams. She taught me how to interpret these dreams, and I have continued to have them periodically throughout my adult life. Since being diagnosed as Bipolar II, I have begun to wonder if this idea of having “special” dreams or a gift, or is it the bipolar making me feel like I have some supernatural/special gift? I felt a real need to post this question after a dream I had last night. Not scary or involving death, just a funny/weird thing. I dreamed of an event where many people from my old hometown were attending. I was an adult in the dream, but several things made it feel similar to my teenage years. My dead father was there, but drunk as he often was IRL. He was also the catalyst for two of my closest friendships—friends I have had since the 4th grade and we still call each other sisters. They really were family to me when my bio family was not, and they are both Native American. Back to the dream: in the dream I was approached by a guy who was vaguely familiar and attractive. He latched on to me and decided he had found his “soul mate”. I felt the same way but was still a bit skeptical (years of real-life therapy and analyzing my bad relationships came through in my dream). Sorry for these asides, I also have ADD and need to insert information that keeps me from telling things in a linear way. The dream felt very real, and this guy was saying we were going to be together forever, etc., after just this one event, it just didn’t feel like I was really me. It was an enjoyable dream, and I remember as I started to wake up, thinking it was funny because I have not had a relationship for years IRL. This was a relationship popping up out of nowhere after years of not being with anyone. The emotions of the dream were overwhelming and exciting, but totally out of character with respect to who I am today. I have major trust issues and strongly suspect people’s motivations due to events I have survived. Also different from my life was the fact that in the dream I was shorter and heavier with long thick hair-so in my dream I was not physically me, although everyone else (except the guy) looked the way they really look, just younger. What woke me up all of the way was the phone ringing. It was one of my sister-friends. I have not heard from her since October 2011. She said I wasn’t going to believe what she had to tell me. She’s pretty wild and crazy, so I had no idea what it would be. She called to tell me she is engaged, and screamed! Now, we are both 49 years old. The man she is engaged to is someone we all knew as teenagers. I dated him casually at 20 yrs old, and about a year later my friend had a very serious relationship with him that resulted in a beautiful daughter (now in her late 20’s). They had a bad split and haven’t dealt with each other for a couple of decades. Based on that knowledge, I said “You are lying to me!! You are pulling a crazy joke—there’s no way!” She said they had bumped into each other at an event in our hometown, and he approached her. He said he had always loved her and they should get married. They have two young grandchildren together as well. He said he wanted to correct his past mistakes. They have been together every moment since then. Today they are both in Denver spending time with daughter and grandsons. He’s asking her what kind of ring she wants and just moving really fast—she agreed to getting married, but wants to be engaged for a while and give him some guidelines that have to be met. I asked her what the timeframe was for this craziness, and she said it all STARTED TWO DAYS AGO!! I was speechless for a minute and said “I have to tell you about a dream I just had—I think it was about you, not me!” So I told her and we were both freaking out and laughing. Physically, I was even her size in the dream! Is this just a freaky coincidence or tuning into my friends extreme emotions or what??? |
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I was hoping someone has had similar experiences with dreams, or could tell me it is something others with BP have felt. Now I feel stupid and embarrassed for posting, but felt compelled to this morning. I have a very hard time communicating verbally, but when I do so in writing, I write too much. I'm not a troll, just weird. Maybe I just don't fit in here, either.
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If you were a troll, all you'd be doing is one-sentence posts
![]() Anyways, I want to put some clarification on my viewpoint with dreams and mental illness(es) before I go into interpretation and whatnot. As I have seen it, people with mental illnesses seem to have a thinner or higher-lifted veiled between themselves and the spiritual realm. My wife is also Bipolar (child onset) and has had the gift of spirit empathy, as well as the curse of apocalyptic dreams. As far as your dreams being prophetic - since you have seen multiple "coincidences" of the dreams coming true, and+ someone else in the spiritual authority has seen it as well, then you almost HAVE to say that you do in fact have the gift. That does not necessarily mean that all of your dreams are that way.Having a lifted veil can also mean that you are tapping into other people's connections with the spirit realm. This is the same way people get messages that a loved one has died. That sounds like what this dream was - your sister sending a subconscious message to you (probably unintentionally, thanks to the subconscious). The key to tell if a dream is prophesy is to look and observe whether or not the message is being told to you or if you are simply experiencing it yourself. Also, if you're lucid without control (like how you described this dream). Sometimes it might require an interpreter, like your Godmother is/was. I recommend journaling your dreams and reflecting on them the next morning. If you can't figure them out, you can always post them here ;P
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Thank you. I appreciate your feedback. I will take your advice about keeping a dream journal.
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1 Corinthians 12:7-11
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