Psychotic/Paranoid Dreams?

Squirrel1983 · Dec 25, 2012, 08:51 AM

So I don't know if it's the stress of regretting sending an email to my pdoc (see my thread in the psychothereapy forum) or the fact that I fell asleep before taking my evening dose of antipsychotic last night, but I had the worse dreams.

First, I dreamed that pdoc's office called and said I needed to come in earlier (even though my next appointment is only 2 weeks away). So, I was compliant and did. He told me that he got my emails and that I was showing signs of mania and psychosis, so he was going to add another med for the mania and increase the med for the psychosis. When I refused to have another med added, he called a nurse in his office (which was werid because as far as I know there are none) and had her bring in some blue liquid that they forced me to drink saying it would make me "more open to treatment" and help with the psychosis. Now I am more worried than I was last night about the emails I sent, I don't want to be drugged to a zombie like state. If I see any blue liquids at a dr's office now I am probably going to freak. Why blue I have no clue, most liquid meds are clearish or red/pink that I have ever had prescribed (antibiotics as a kid or couch medicine as an adult). Am I just showing signs of worry because I wish I didn't send the emails?

After this dream I woke up to use the bathroom. After falling back asleep I had another weird dream. This time I dreamed that I was hearing voices (not like I do in real life...I only hear "chatter" in real life...in my dream I heard 2 people conversing). I don't remember exactly what/everything that was said, but I remember they were keeping a dialouge on what I was doing (commenting both good and bad about it). Could this have been because I forgot to take my evening dose of my risperidone last night?

I'm just really at a loss.