[Ryuguu_Rena]

Most of them are related to me actually being in a psych ward...(I've only be in one once; for two days.) Last night was a bit different though. I was clearly sick in the dream; and my girlfriend's mother (who is like a second mother to me) was going to take me to the hospital; but she kept beating around the bush for some reason. I never got to the hospital; and I woke up. I also have an abundance of dreams about houses...a few days ago; I had a dream about a house- but the house was burnt to the ground. It was smoldering ash- except for a dresser; and some various items here and there. I've been having these misplaced feelings of abandonment, guilt, and the feeling of not being wanted or needed while I'm awake (I know they're misplaced; but I can't help but feel them...It's incredibly selfish of me..). I'm sure these dreams stem from those feelings...it hurts; very much.

[Thunder Bow]

Fire is transformation. Old life structures burn to the ground and yet you continue on. You know you Do Not need hospitalization any more. Your dreams show your endurcance durning life changes and your abilty to survive them and grow from them, dispite those negitive feelings!