not a very pleasant dream

so i got back together with my ex, i saw the whole first day of us together again, it was wonderful. so at one point we were walking somewhere and we stopped under a church's tower. We were looking up to the tower and speaking about how high is it and we saw some people there. as we turned to walk forth a guy just fall from the tower and hit us. we were lying on the floor. on my right side there was the dead guy, splashed. i checked myself, i was okay. i looked on my left and i saw my girlfriend, she was dead as well. here head was separated from her body. i tried to put it back, it was disgusting and inefficient. i felt myself guilty somehow and though i knew everybody saw what happened i tried to behave naturally, like nothing happened. i went so far that i responded to someone's speaking with a joke and i laughed. and that point i knew i don't care about her, im just glad im okay.
do we feel and act differently in dreams or im just a jerk or i just dont love her or i just cant love anyone else in the world as myself?

Head detached from feelings! Go with your Heart!

The ex-girlfriend represents an emotional aspect of yourself, an aspect that could reflect feelings you have about your ex. The ex can also represent feelings you have pertaining to “a failed relationship”. Getting back with the ex can imply reconnecting with your feelings about the ex. Seeing the whole first day together again as wonderful would imply experiencing these feelings with great pleasure and also thinking in terms of a continuing relationship. With this perception you could see yourself making progress with the relationship. (walking somewhere)

But the progress comes to a stop when seeing the ex or the relationship in relation to the church. (stopped under a church tower) The church’s tower as used in this scene seems to suggest the high point or the ideal within Christian thinking. This could well refer to the ideal of “love” as the Christian God is a God of Love. [Where Christian love is associated with a love relationship, the issue of marriage would probably be involved also.] Looking up to the tower would imply giving respect and honour to this ideal, its great height implying great honour as well as reflecting much idealism.

The people up in the tower, would represent aspects of yourself that have acquired a perspective coming of the ideal of a loving mental attitude or way of thinking. Yet using some poor thinking you see yourself mentally failing in relation to this ideal - of love and marriage?. (a guy falls from the tower) This idea of failing hits you very hard; it has a major impact upon you. The idea of failing where love is concerned seems to leave you thinking of yourself as lying down on the job – not fulfilling your obligations. It would seem in the right – correct – that mentally this is completely devastating. (my right side there was the dead guy, splashed) While you see yourself on a physical level as being still OK, the devastation has occurred on an inner, psychological level. (the guy and girlfriend are dead)

What is seen as in the wrong (on my left) is that the impact of a thought of having failed in relation to the ideal of love has left you emotionally losing your head, i.e. your feelings regarding the ex and the relationship are no longer being governed by reason. Your attempt to reestablish rational thinking pertaining to the ex and the relationship is futile and when seen in terms of a head trying to be put back upon a body, the attempt appears inefficient and disgusting. [This is probably so because your feelings re: the ex and the relationship is shown to be actually a dead issue. No amount of rethinking it will restore it. All one can do is mourn for a time then move on.]

The after effect here appears to be some misplaced feelings of guilt. (felt myself guilty) As the scene shows, you personally or physically did nothing to cause the death of the relationship. (everybody saw what happened) Your attempt to deal with this emotional catastrophe may include some slightly inappropriate behaviour. (tried to behave naturally … speaking with a joke and laughing about it) The joke and laughter could also be implying that you might need to lighten up – take the event of a dead relationship less seriously. [In this case this may be so because the ex herself is the one who is shown to have “lost her head”; she was no longer able to think reasonably. Someone else’s failing where love is involved appears to have devastated her. (the guy hit her when he fell)]

What this scene also shows you is that your own poor thinking (the guy) about love and marriage? is involved in the failed relationship. People subconsciously pick up on our thoughts and act under their influence. This is something you probably were not aware of when you set yourself up for a fall (guy in a high tower) by using a perhaps too idealistic idea of love and judging yourself unrealistically. You may need to chalk this up to experience and just be glad you are OK – because emotional-psychological problems can become body ailments. The scene says nothing negative about your loving ability. Look how you try to put back her head even though it was disgusting and gruesome task.