[Nebelsiek]

What do you think this dream means?:
I had a vivid dream about having a baby girl.
I was younger, surrounded by my family (Mum, Dad, Brothers) and we didn’t know who the father is. I fell in love with my baby girl straight away. She opened her eyes early and she was a very beautiful, healthy baby. She started talking early. Speaking in full sentences by about one year old. Polite, intelligent, very wise and full of substance. My Mum said that she’s like I was as a child. I felt so proud, happy and delighted. It was like a testimate as to what a great parent I'd been. I had raised this beautiful intelligent baby girl and surely she could have a brighter and happier future than I had had.
But, around me, my family and people were mean and confusing. She grew up so quickly. She looked like a sixteen year old by about three years old. Literally. That tall. I felt a bit concerned but she seemed to be doing ok and fitting into normal teenage life. She wasn't a difficult person or obsessed with pop culture looks. She seemed grounded and fine. But quiet. Gradually she seemed to become withdrawn and angry with the world and ran away. I'm sure that the arguments from my family didn't help her but I couldn't change my famiy's behaviours.
I felt so torn and hopeless and upset with nothing I could do to help. I looked everywhere for her. Never giving up. I found that she’d either joined a Church boarding house or gone into prostitution. I felt so upset. I wanted to protect her and I felt like these were the wrong kind of decisions. Even though I didn't want these futures for her I thought about how I could accept these kind of life choices if it turned out these were what she wanted and I agonised over whether it was this route or another I should take. Should I try to talk her out of such decisions even if she doesn't want to return home and instead wants to pursue something that I think is hurtful for her and against my morals ~ which is the best thing to do?
Eventually, I found her. She’d been taken from me by the military against her will and it was all a big lie that she’d ran away. When I saw her she was angry and confused but I gave her a big hug and a kiss either on the cheek or forehead like I had when she was born and she broke down into tears and began to calm down. Safe. Although she had the intelligence and looks of almost an adult, she was still emotionally a three year old. I felt sad.

[Travelinglady]

Sometimes we have to wait for our interpreters to check in here, so hang on!

[Nebelsiek]

Originally Posted by PAYNE1

Sometimes we have to wait for our interpreters to check in here, so hang on!

Thank you
I will

[Thunder Bow]

This is a dream about You Yourself. You are fearing/feeling that you are emotonaly immature but smart. This probably due to the way you were treated when you were a child. Thus all the Family members.

You are very smart, intergrate your feelings into yourself. If your not already emotonaly mature, you will soon will be.

[Nebelsiek]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

This is a dream about You Yourself. You are fearing/feeling that you are emotonaly immature but smart. This probably due to the way you were treated when you were a child. Thus all the Family members.

You are very smart, intergrate your feelings into yourself. If your not already emotonaly mature, you will soon will be.

Thanks for the feedback

That sounds about right...

I started talking at three months old, started reading at 14 months old, was pressured to skip year one and then was put into a gifted and talented class. So, I guess for much of my life this has shaped how I think about myself ~ as though intelligence had been something that was apart of my identity (with exceptions) and was something I was proud of.

But, a few years ago I was placed with a Host Family where I was bullied really badly. Each day I was called things like, "stupid", "Barbie-Doll" and "ugly", force fed to the point where I would throw up inside my mouth, deprived of sleep, unable to go outside ~ following sexual harassment from a teacher at school.

I experienced Post Traumatic Stress, Severe Depression, Anxiety and Memory Loss. I used to be able to remember very clearly and vividly ~ even conversations, feelings, smells and sensations that had happened five years back. But, following the difficult experience my memory eroded to the point where I couldn't remember where I'd put things, struggled to hold a conversation (as I'd forget what I or the other person had said) and found it difficult to learn. It kind of confirmed what my Host Family had said about me being stupid.

Gradually, it has been getting better and I have been feeling better about myself. So, it's interesting that I seemed to have dreamed about being smart. Maybe I am starting to feel more like myself again.

As a child I grew up in a physically, verbally and emotionally abusive environment. I had to keep vigilant and protect my younger brothers and wasn't able to focus on spirituality, what I wanted to do with my life, what feels good and stuff that some people may be able to start exploring earlier in life. I was surviving, not living. I do worry that because I grew up like that and have experienced so many traumas that I won't be able to heal and grow up emotionally or that I am stunted. What do you think the Military lying and the Church or Prostitution is about, though?

[Thunder Bow]

That is those who abused you, and you now suspect they too, are lying. All the bad things said to you, were indeed Lies.

I see your Healing in the dream. I feel very Proud and moved by your courage to post here.