[Avalon393]

Hi there I'm new here. 23 years old. A bit of background: My ex is an alcoholic/ addict. We lived together 2 years and then broke up for 2 years. He got sober, we recently lived together for another year until he relapsed and kicked me out and broke up with me again 2 weeks ago.....since then I keep having a reoccurring dream that him, the roomate and I are living somewhere new, literally a new place every night. I look around and then realize I'm all packed to move out. My ex starts yelling at me like crazy and being very cold as he was in reality. I get the same sick panicky feeling that I'm losing the love of my life all over again and wake up in cold sweats. The only difference in the dreams are the objects he's holding of mine and yelling about...last night it was a pillow that he ended up throwing...the night before it was a green bowl of mine that he said he didn't want that kept turning pink, and he kept mumbling about the number 5? Also I had climbed up a ladder and was in a "loft" during this scene. Do you guys have any thoughts on this? I'm aware that this is common in breakups but it is getting to be excessive, and confusing with all the random objects/numbers. Thank you in advance.

[wordlessdevotion]

Hi, I do not have any answers but want to say my ex is an alcoholic too. I do not get much sleep for a very long time now. In my dreams it seems to be the same, always at some kind of a party at her new place. Different every time but similar that I am constantly trying to find her. I am having trouble letting go. we get together and break up over and over and that part is in real life. I seem to be a real sucker for punishment as I love her dearly but the love just is not there. I have stuck with her for about 4 years trying to keep her off the booze. now that she is not drinking she has no use for me and feel so used up. I have no one to talk to about this stuff and not saying you need to get involved but just to say you are not alone in the struggle with some one you may care about. I want to be free of her and yet I don't. Round and round I go. seems like you and I need some real distraction. For myself I have so much chronic pain that I do not do a heck of a lot and am stuck at home with my thoughts. I am replying to you to put a little change in my day and hope that by changing my routine my dreams may change also. No This really does not help I suppose but again you are not alone. Have a good day my friend and hope you get some answers and closure.

Wordlessdevotion.

[Thunder Bow]

Him throwing objects that you own, indicates his rejection of you. (You feel his rejection). You are packed and ready to go. The different places indicate the diiferent approach you took with him, but to be rejected again. Climbing into a loft above the situation indicates you are getting above the situation now, and have some control over it. You have removed yourself from it. "5" may mean some thing about your family that you grew up in?