[Luxetveritas]

I would like to hear other people's views on interpreting the dream below. My therapist (Mike) and I discussed it but I am not sure we are seeing eye to eye on the meaning of this dream. I've been in therapy for nearly one year, dealing with early childhood sexual abuse (with father).

I woke up with my heart pounding, body hot and aroused. I wasn’t sure if it was a dream, fantasy, memory – partly dream and fantasy. I wanted to re-enter the dream, but was awakened by noise early this morning. I picked up my IPhone and recorded the dream:

It was the last day of therapy and we were talking, finishing up. Mike was being very business-like and I stood up to go. Then shockingly he asked me if he could hug me (or if I could hug him?) Anyway we were hugging intensely. Then the interaction became fiercely sexual in the sense that I felt this incredibly strong desire. At first I thought, “This can’t be mutual. It’s against all the therapy rules and Mike (my therapist) wouldn’t do this.” So, I questioned him. He said something to the effect that therapy was over and that when we first met, he was suicidal and depressed. Then I walked into his life and he felt energized and remembered why he studied therapy and he felt very grateful to me. We hugged each other a long time and I sobbed with my head nestled on his shoulder. Then we made love on the couch in the office. My god it was so good. Incredible waves of desire pulsed through our interaction.

Then I woke up and wanted to go back into the dream – it felt like a movie scene that I wanted to play over and over. I wanted to feel that intense desire – my own desire for someone and for someone to desire me that ferociously. I want to feel it again and again – to feel so alive.

[Thunder Bow]

A Beautiful dream of Healing. Your therapy is working. You own your own desires now, no more Fear and Guilt. You are feeling deeply now, good work.

[chumchum]

Originally Posted by Luxetveritas

I would like to hear other people's views on interpreting the dream below. My therapist (Mike) and I discussed it but I am not sure we are seeing eye to eye on the meaning of this dream. I've been in therapy for nearly one year, dealing with early childhood sexual abuse (with father).

I woke up with my heart pounding, body hot and aroused. I wasn’t sure if it was a dream, fantasy, memory – partly dream and fantasy. I wanted to re-enter the dream, but was awakened by noise early this morning. I picked up my IPhone and recorded the dream:

It was the last day of therapy and we were talking, finishing up. Mike was being very business-like and I stood up to go. Then shockingly he asked me if he could hug me (or if I could hug him?) Anyway we were hugging intensely. Then the interaction became fiercely sexual in the sense that I felt this incredibly strong desire. At first I thought, “This can’t be mutual. It’s against all the therapy rules and Mike (my therapist) wouldn’t do this.” So, I questioned him. He said something to the effect that therapy was over and that when we first met, he was suicidal and depressed. Then I walked into his life and he felt energized and remembered why he studied therapy and he felt very grateful to me. We hugged each other a long time and I sobbed with my head nestled on his shoulder. Then we made love on the couch in the office. My god it was so good. Incredible waves of desire pulsed through our interaction.

Then I woke up and wanted to go back into the dream – it felt like a movie scene that I wanted to play over and over. I wanted to feel that intense desire – my own desire for someone and for someone to desire me that ferociously. I want to feel it again and again – to feel so alive.

I have never had a sexual dream about my T but I do have dreams where I am alone and sad because I am alone. Suddenly my T will appear behind me and tell me I am being silly as he has been here all along waiting for me to realize he was sent here for me. There is then an intense hug and I wake up smiling.

[MusicMike]

I agree with Thunder Bow in saying it is a dream of healing. Your early sexual experience with a male "somewhat authority" figure, your father, was traumatic. In this dream you have a sexual experience with a man that feels pleasureful. Also Mike was suicidal and you entered his life and provided healing for him, so you have this nurturing and healing capacity in you. Think about the possibility that Mike in the dream is a part of yourself, the "man within the woman" (I'm assuming you are a woman) (the qualities in yourself that you associate more with men than with women), who is initially ill, but you provide healing to him.

[MusicMike]

Originally Posted by chumchum

I have never had a sexual dream about my T but I do have dreams where I am alone and sad because I am alone. Suddenly my T will appear behind me and tell me I am being silly as he has been here all along waiting for me to realize he was sent here for me. There is then an intense hug and I wake up smiling.

That's beautiful, to realized he was there all along. I think it speaks to a capacity within your psyche to calm, center, and ground you. Buddhists speak of enlightenment as a capacity you discover you had in you all along. If you are religious person, it sounds a lot like God.

Mike

[chumchum]

Originally Posted by mike1127

That's beautiful, to realized he was there all along. I think it speaks to a capacity within your psyche to calm, center, and ground you. Buddhists speak of enlightenment as a capacity you discover you had in you all along. If you are religious person, it sounds a lot like God.

Mike

It feels very nice to hear him say those words. I am dealing with transference and still after 2 1/2 years have not told him of my feelings. I more than likely never will. My treatment has gone well and next session will be our last. I will miss him but it is time for me to move on.