[shezbut]

In the beginning of this dream, I went to a hospital to meet someone who works there (he owed money to me). He was a PCA. Anyway, I got my money and was leaving the hospital.

**********May be very triggering**********


I walked by a room in the hospital where a comatose man was lying on a steel bed. I went into the room ~ a man appeared & I was acting like a nurse in training. This man was supposedly a doctor, working with the patient, but it was archaic! He had an electric system hooked up to the "bed" and showed me how it worked.

The "doctor" pushed a button on the controls in his hand, and the bed came up to a 90 degree angle. Very quickly, so the patient's head slammed against the bed! I was horrified. This "doctor" was beside the patient on the bed, as he continued to push the button up and down. Slaam! Slaaaam!! :eek : I didn't know what to do! How could a "doctor" do this to someone...the brain damage...it was beyond cruel and enraging to me!

Remarkably, the patient awoke from his coma after a couple of slams. The "doctor" was proud. I went to tell a nurse at the hospital of the horror. She already knew and wasn't surprised. It felt like madness! Suddenly, a couple of escorts came and quickly dragged me waaaay down the hallway into a room. I tried to yell and scream the whole way, but nobody heard me.

I was put onto a bed, and that same "doctor" was there waiting for me. I must have been tied down, because I couldn't get up. I squirmed with all of my might ~ nurses came in, to hook up my lines & I hit, scratched, whacked them away. Doctor's assistants followed, expecting me to be knocked out. I wouldn't accept shots or the anaesthesia mask. I was going bananas, not allowing any one to come near me. I sure as hell wasn't going to allow these sick "doctors" to abuse me!

I woke up for a second, screaming "no!" Then, I fell back into the same dream. I somehow managed to get out of my straps, with all of my fighting and finally started running down the halls, trying to escape. They were after me though ~ quicker and stronger than I was. Once again, I was put on a gurney and quickly rushed through the halls into the psychiatric unit. I continued screaming that these doctors were trying to kill me, "Help!!!" Another quick wake, to hear myself shouting (which came out as super-soft, despite my effort) and back to the same dream. No one responded.

I was surrounded in bed again. The doctors tried to reason with me. What were the chances that this "doctor" and everyone at the hospital were evil and trying to kill me? Why would they do such a thing? They were merely trying to help me get through this delusion that I was stuck in. I had to get better, and that meant that I had to trust them enough to let them give me the shot of anaesthetic and take the mask. NO WAY did I trust them at all!!

I finally woke shaking my head side to side slowly, but firmly, saying "no, no!" I stayed awake, but VERY upset. It was a very disturbing dream to me. Trying to figure out where this intense nightmare came from ~ how I kept waking but still stayed in that state of mind. Thankfully, it's an unusual nightmare for me. But, what was my dream telling me?? I feel trapped???? Please do respond with any insight you might have. Thank you!!

[NWgirl2013]

Wow Shez! ~ Sounds scary!!! Someone owing you money, seeing something horrific and then the experience of it happening to you. The lack of trust in those around you in the dream.

To me this speaks about control, or the lack thereof, that you are feeling in one or several areas of your life. Maybe you feel you have no say in some major areas, your health being a huge one. That's what I see...

[Thunder Bow]

You don't Trust what those Doctors represent. Getting better = not being knocked out by medications. The 1st part of the dream is out of a 3 Stooges Comedy Movie, the last half out of a Stephen King Movie.

You feel that you lack control, and you are being forceably moved about and restrained, By things that have over whelmed you. Things probably in your every day life that you have no control over. Have you been moved about, agenst your will in real life?

If you are seeing a Therapist, maybe you better change therapists. Or any doctor or other athority figure. You are fighting to be Free of them.

[MusicMike]

One thing that occurs to me is that sometimes accepting help can feel brutal at first. For instance, when a kind person like a caretaker expresses compassion and care, it can bring up very intense emotions that make you feel like you are getting "slammed." What about the possibility that these doctors represent some source of genuine help in your life, but it is bringing up intense fear and pain? I get this association from the doctors reasoning with you... somehow, the way you wrote that feels to me like the doctors might truly be trying to help you, but that you are very threatened by this help, the way that therapy (for instance) can feel threatening. Or if you do have someone in your life like a therapist who is trying to help you, maybe they are skilled enough to reassure you. I have a friend in therapy and I don't like her therapist--I think her therapist is causing her to feel more agitated.

I'm in therapy myself, have been for many years, and it was brutal at first, but my therapist did skillfully help me to get past the tough stuff.

[spinachinacan]

I think it may be significant that you first saw another patient abused, and then you were forced into the same hands. Maybe resisting what you are seeing happen to others?

[shezbut]

Originally Posted by mike1127

=..What about the possibility that these doctors represent some source of genuine help in your life, but it is bringing up intense fear and pain? I get this association from the doctors reasoning with you... somehow, the way you wrote that feels to me like the doctors might truly be trying to help you, but that you are very threatened by this help, the way that therapy (for instance) can feel threatening. Or if you do have someone in your life like a therapist who is trying to help you, maybe they are skilled enough to reassure you. I have a friend in therapy and I don't like her therapist--I think her therapist is causing her to feel more agitated...

That is a completely different way of looking at it, mike. I hadn't thought of that possibility. Thank you for your input!

I also want to thank Thunder Bow and NWgirl2013 for your helpful remarks. Definitely things to think about. I am feeling rather overwhelmed by a romantic relationship that I'm in, but this dream seems to go beyond that to me. I don't know. Thank you for posting!