[Pegasister17]

And the bizarre dreams continue! This one is gotta be the most disturbing....
I remember I was driving a car down the road. For some reason I had trouble figuring out which pedal is which. I eventually figure it out and when I look up, I crash into another car. The guy from the car I had just hit gestures for me to pull over. I do what he says and start to cry out of fear. He comes over and tells me that the damage is not bad at all and that I may not have to pay $130,000 worth of damage. I stop crying and breathe a sigh of relief.
The second dream is disturbing..
I can only remember certain parts from this one.
I was being held captive at a house. It was a two story house and was very spacious. I was basically being used to make sexually explicit films. I was me in this dream for once as well. A guy led me up to the second floor. In the room, I found camera equipment, a huge queen bed, and my crush tied up to a chair. He was naked, had his hands tied behind his back and over the chair, his legs tied up, and tape covering his mouth. He looked pretty scared to me. Another guy comes up the stairs and grabs a camcorder. The next thing I know, I'm naked and am given instructions on what to do. The last thing I remember before the dream ended, was that I was sitting and was giving him a bj (not going to say the full name of it. It includes me putting my mouth around something.) His mouth was uncovered then and he was moaning. I didn't seem to be enjoying it.
What in the world does this mean??!

[MusicMike]

It might have something to do with how you relate to sexual feelings that arise spontaneously (which I think they do in all people). There is an association of sexuality with being exploited and held captive. Your crush is present, so it may be about sexual feelings that arise spontaneously in association with him. Maybe you relate with fear and resistance to sexual feelings, particularly related to your crush?

[Pegasister17]

Hmm could be. It was very vivid and it didn't seem like I was there. Most of my dreams that are of this theme, have me fearing intimacy for some reason. I think it's kinda strange. I don't really think of him in that sort of way..and I try not to. Considering my first dream of him ever was a rape dream....

[MusicMike]

When you write you "try not to" think of him in a sexual way, what I wonder is whether this causes sexual feelings that arise in your unconscious to be intrusive. You might feel held captive by your own sexuality in that way. I'm curious to see what Thunder Bow thinks.

[Pegasister17]

Maybe it's my minds creepy way of having sexual thoughts that I try and hold back during the day. It's kind of like a release of emotions...only in an intimate way.