[bluewings]

I had this dream that I was in a house, it wasn't familiar to me but it felt like it was mine. I started walking around taking in the scene, I walked thru a hallway to a bedroom and pushed the door open, in the centre of this room was a dry dead tree and in this tree were monkeys about 6 of them and each 1 were dangling babies by the ankle taunting me that they were going to drop them I had to walk out, back in the corridor I collected myself and tried for the next room in the 2nd room a glass wall stopped me from walking in but I could see what was in there, i'm looking around the room and realise i'm looking at sex objects, toys chains. whips etc but no-one or persons are in there, suddenly people dressed in white overalls and face masks go in from a side door in that room and start hosing down that room, I step out and shake myself because i'm wondering what the heck is going on, i'm afraid of the 3rd door but push it open anyway, in this room its burnt black chard wood that was once a room, I can see remnants of pieces of furniture where they once were, this room is haunting me more so because I definitely know this room, i'm getting angry because this is 1 room that I wish never ever to see ever, I know whats in there.....I couldn't stop myself though I still looked over to the corner where the bed should have been knowing to well I shouldn't look I just cant stop, so as I look over there I see the skeleton of my grandmother I wake up angry with myself....however in reality in my real life my father died in a house fire not my grandmother, my grandmother passed away at 85 much loved mother, grand and great grandmother, so i'm confused why I would feel that the skeleton was my nans...i'm actually confused with this entire dream

[MusicMike]

What are you associations to monkeys? What kind of animal do you think they are? Does the image of threatening to drop babies feel familiar in any way? Have you seen or felt anything like that before?

Do you have any sense why the men were hosing down the room with sex objects? Were they trying to clean it? Did they need to wear face masks because the room was contaminated with something? (Sometimes people say sex is dirty.)

There are a lot of sort of primitive emotions/feelings in the dream. The monkeys are a kind of primitive human, sex is a very primitive emotion, and the third room has a lot of fear.

Did your father share any qualities with your grandmother? Did they have similar personalities?

-Mike

[bluewings]

Originally Posted by mike1127

What are you associations to monkeys? What kind of animal do you think they are? Does the image of threatening to drop babies feel familiar in any way? Have you seen or felt anything like that before?

Do you have any sense why the men were hosing down the room with sex objects? Were they trying to clean it? Did they need to wear face masks because the room was contaminated with something? (Sometimes people say sex is dirty.)

There are a lot of sort of primitive emotions/feelings in the dream. The monkeys are a kind of primitive human, sex is a very primitive emotion, and the third room has a lot of fear.

Did your father share any qualities with your grandmother? Did they have similar personalities?

-Mike

Hi mike thank you for replying,

I'll start with my Father and Grandmother 1st, they were both carers, took in so many people mostly children gave them sheltered and educational experiences, very involved in the small rural community where they lived, my father passed away when I was 2yrs old and my grandmother took me in. My grandmother gave me the best in my life, everything bad that happened to me, I manage to be able to remember the good when I was with her, when she passed away I felt abandoned in this world, my rock was gone, my father was her eldest of her children they were close which I think maybe what the monkeys meant, ? I think? as far as the room with the sex objects and being hosed down, may have something to do with my childhood sexual abuse that's what i'm thinking

Anyways thank you again, you gave me a better insight about my dream

[MusicMike]

It's not surprising the dream puts your grandmother in the burned room because it sounds like her loss was devastating.

Regarding the monkeys, do you know if you blame yourself for the abuse on some level? Children do that sometimes.

The room with sex objects may symbolize your attitude toward sexuality, perhaps seeing it as something unclean that needs sanitation. It could also symbolize an internal attitude toward the abuse, like an attempt to "sanitize" the emotions around it so you don't feel them so directly.

-Mike

[bluewings]

hi again mike
from my childhood abuse when I actually spoke out, nothing got done about it, and I would hear adults calling me a liar, or he wouldn't do that he's a good man....I was a child and no-one was there for me, I don't know if whether I blame myself, but I do blame a lot of people for knowing and doing nothing about it.

I feel that my relationships are based more on a sexual relationship rather than a companionship, men are with me for sex, is how I feel about it, they don't respect me, or support me and I do feel like i'm with holding sex from my partner because I don't believe he's with me for anything else and that does make me feel dirty

[MusicMike]

One thought that occurs to me is that the monkeys are trying to get a rise out of you by threatening to hurt a baby, trying to provoke a reaction in you. In the dream, in the third room, you know you don't want to look but can't help it. Maybe your memories and feelings about childhood are "taunting" you, in the sense they keep bubbling up and you feel sort of trapped, unable to turn away. So it feels like taunting perhaps, even though it is likely your psyche is trying to heal, down at the root of things.

-Mike

[bluewings]

Oh that sounds right, I am trying to heal and my memories are like taunts, and yes I do feel trapped find it hard to move forward...thank you again mike

[Thunder Bow]

Mike is on track with this dream. Abuse is what I thought of as soon as I read it. Remember in reality men are not all bad, just some are. Seek therapy to help your self Heal.