[Lily5473]

I've been in therapy for 3 months now. I have a lot of symptoms of ptsd and I think is due to abuse I've experienced in my childhood. I just don't remember. I've been having terrible flashbacks and so this stuff has been on my mind for a while now. So last night I had a really, really horrible dream. I was in my uncle's flat (which was situated on our yard when I was a child). I was laying on a table, I was filthy, and full of bruises. My father (who has been deceased for 8 years), my uncle and my other uncle were all standing around me. My uncle told me how stupid I was for not knowing that they all had their chance (with me) and now they were going to do it again. I think I told him that I would fight. He was laughing at how stupid I was for not realizing that it was (all three of) them. And then he started hitting me till I bled. I don't remember the rest of the dream. I know dreams are just symbolic but a part of me feels like my subconscious (for lack of a better word) was trying to tell me something. It really, really disturbs me. I have had a massive headache the whole and feel as if my body has been hit by a train. Maybe if I can make sense of the dream's symbolic meaning I can have some peace?

[gayleggg]

I'm not surprised you feel awful after having such a dream. I don't know anything about dream interpretation but just wanted to let you know how sorry I am you are plagued by such a horrible dream. Maybe your therapist can help you work through it.
Best wishes
gayle

[Thunder Bow]

You are remembering what happened to you when you were a child. This more of a memory than symbole. As you journey through Therapy you will experience drams such as the ones you posted here. Tell your Therapist about All dreams you have experienced while in Therapy.

[MusicMike]

Starting therapy can stir up a lot of feelings, and intensify things. I think it's safest to avoid trying to pin down specific memories from dreams and stay on the level of asking "what does this mean to me?" In this dream there are cruel men who delight in their sadistic power.

It makes me think of my own psyche. I don't know if we are similar, but it reminds me a lot of the way I was hurt by childhood wounds, and the way I developed a lot of cruelty toward myself. People can be really cruel to themselves. The dream may be trying to get your attention and say, "Hey, you know those judgmental thoughts you have about yourself? Those really hurt you deep down." Our thoughts and feelings toward ourselves can be very intense and have the potential to wound us deeply. Because you are starting therapy, your psyche may be more open to becoming conscious of your relationship toward yourself. It may be safer to experience these feelings.

Mike