[happiedasiy]

I usually give advice but its been awhile since l shared

I have an every so often recurring dream the setting is one of 2 houses.
The first house is a Mansion full of glitter and gold, plaster moldings from the ceiling to the floors. Silk tapestries cover the windows making it hard to see the man on the outside of the house who is constantly making the mansion larger and larger and while I sleep in the night he is constantly decorating the inside of the house with fancy furniture like tall chest with hidden drawers. Inside the hidden draws are either notes of affection or fancy jewelry. There are lots of mirrors in the house and every day I awake to find the house different with new rooms to admire and explore. It usually takes me into the evening when I find a note i don't remember what they say but they always give me a sense of warmth and love. I would glance to a mirror or window looking for the man who is watching over me, just before his face becomes clear he disappears.
Inside of the house is full of people who are negative towards me and I hear whispers and cynical laughter, the air is heavy I feel tormented, and can never leave.
The 2nd house is very large and dilapidated but filled with hidden gems of the dead and gone, I spend my days searching the house through the cobwebs and dust. There are demons in this house that are after my soul and sanity. They are very powerful and inflict much sadness and sorrow. I am strong in this house but always in battle. I am trying to gather the good gems so I can finally leave. This house is the house of the man of the first house which we use to share together. We were in love for a long time but this man has a lot of sadness in him. Trying to gather the burdens so we can move seems impossible and as time passes he is stuck and my love for him is stuck also,
The dreams never conclude to a happy ending. The energy of this house is good and no demons chasing me. It is the mans demons who prevent us from moving forward.

I know what I gather from my dreams but would like others to interpret for me.
Lots of Love/Happiedasiy

I have a house of my own where i live alone, it is on the same street where I lived as a child. I use to ride my bike to the top of the street at the stop sign and turn around always thought if I could get past that stop sign I would be happy. I bought this house at the stop sign to be close to f parent who later disowned me. I am not happy here, it is very noisy, my daughter moved out and got married and i feel stuck here all alone.

[Perna]

Happiedasiy, thank you for sharing your dream(s). What wealth!

I guess I want to know about the when you have one, when the other, or if you have them both the same night, etc. It does sound related to your poignant actual life and the houses you had as a child and the one at the stop sign you have now. I like that the same man ties the two together.

When I look at my dreams, I believe I am all the characters in my dreams as they are my dreams my unconscious is making up so. . . :-) I have never had a truly recurring dream, only a dream "theme" (an apartment I use to live in; often I was cleaning the apartment (I was cited and almost thrown out of the apartment twice by health inspectors) and/or there were roaches everywhere which would seriously depress and defeat me; it was hard to dream I had cleaned everything up and feel that relief and joy only to wake and have it not be true; however, the dreams took place years after I had moved from the apartment and I did not have quite a "mess" problem (and no roaches :-) after I moved).

Anyway, I would concentrate on the man in your dream since he is the person who ties the two "halves"/dreams together. It looks, quickly, like you have the present and the past and then someone/a personal essence tying them together. Is there any sense of competition between the two halves? Do you prefer one dream over the other or get physically tired of battling, or wish to leave with/without the man in the first dream? What wakes you from each dream and what's the emotion right at that moment?

However, it also looks like you have glitter/gold and gems in common in the two dreams? One is "hidden" and the other is fought for. You did sort of fight your past/growing up for your present because you saw hidden meaning (if you could get past the stop sign, you would be happy). It is interesting to me that you bought the house at the stop sign, not one beyond it?

When did the dreams start and/or have they gotten more frequent? When your daughter moved out? After your parent disowned you? If it were me, I would say of course I am not happy there, I have not figured out how to move beyond the stop sign.

[Thunder Bow]

A Warriors Victory!

[happiedasiy]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

A Warriors Victory!

Thank you for your response, but could you explain further please.
Happiedasiy

[JadeAmethyst]

[quote=happiedasiy;3190367]I usually give advice but its been awhile since l shared

I have an every so often recurring dream the setting is one of 2 houses.
The first house is a Mansion full of glitter and gold, plaster moldings from the ceiling to the floors. Silk tapestries cover the windows making it hard to see the man on the outside of the house who is constantly making the mansion larger and larger and while I sleep in the night he is constantly decorating the inside of the house with fancy furniture like tall chest with hidden drawers. Inside the hidden draws are either notes of affection or fancy jewelry. There are lots of mirrors in the house and every day I awake to find the house different with new rooms to admire and explore. It usually takes me into the evening when I find a note i don't remember what they say but they always give me a sense of warmth and love. I would glance to a mirror or window looking for the man who is watching over me, just before his face becomes clear he disappears.

My perception of this part is: This is the new you, the assertive you, the one who is your truest and deepest loving self. The one who knows what and who you are, in this present time. A time of transitioning, growth, season, and becoming fruitful in your personal life.
Mirrors/windows reflection, and higher vision/perceptions.
warmth and love, inner compassion and self-care.
The face, is your inner guidance and lover self.


Inside of the house is full of people who are negative towards me and I hear whispers and cynical laughter, the air is heavy I feel tormented, and can never leave.
Feelings from the past life you once lived here, old ghosts taunting you.

The 2nd house is very large and dilapidated but filled with hidden gems of the dead and gone, I spend my days searching the house through the cobwebs and dust. There are demons in this house that are after my soul and sanity. They are very powerful and inflict much sadness and sorrow. I am strong in this house but always in battle.
.Inner conflict: old devotions and loyalty from childhood when you were too young to admit/accept the environment. Too much hurting, pains, misunderstanding.


I am trying to gather the good gems so I can finally leave.
Taking what you can use and leaving the rest, to rest. No more war.

This house is the house of the man of the first house which we use to share together. We were in love for a long time but this man has a lot of sadness in him. Trying to gather the burdens so we can move seems impossible and as time passes he is stuck and my love for him is stuck also,
Recognition, that this situation/relationship is at present is at a standstill, change is happening as we speak.

The dreams never conclude to a happy ending.
Always there is a beginning, middle and ending to change. Happy or unhappy. At the end of the day, what does this ending conclude? Was it worthwhile, growth producing, satisfying, and what is it missing that you can provide for you to be happy, alone or together?

The energy of this house is good and no demons chasing me. It is the mans demons who prevent us from moving forward.
What is you plan to move forward? What does moving forward mean? What is your heart longing and yearning for? Are you putting too much pressure on yourself?

I know what I gather from my dreams but would like others to interpret for me.
Lots of Love/Happiedasiy

I use to ride my bike to the top of the street at the stop sign and turn around always thought if I could get past that stop sign I would be happy. I bought this house at the stop sign to be close to f parent who later disowned me. I am not happy here, it is very noisy, my daughter moved out and got married and i feel stuck here all alone.[/quote]
Lots of hugs and warmth to you Happie,
this is grief, grieving and I wish you well from the bottom of my heart.

be well,
warm regards
Jade

[Thunder Bow]

Originally Posted by happiedasiy

Thank you for your response, but could you explain further please.
Happiedasiy

You won the battles, now you can walk past the stop signs. You recovered much.

[happiedasiy]

Thank you all who responded, I was deeply touched.

I know the first house was representative of my childhood.
All the glitter and gold held no value for me, it was a house of horror.
The only source of affection came from the man outside who was untouchable.

This man is one of 2 men my bio father and the man of the 2nd dream is who I am with now. ( a mix )

The second house is a representative of a house I shared with my daughter and her stepdad, this house is dead, dusty, and the cobwebs for 12 years.
This man is full of sadness that I can't repair. (his mother was murdered when he was 8 and his dad died in the house of lung cancer when he was 17.)
Both his parents were beautiful people and he feels like it is still "their house"
for him to maintain and all the furnishings in honor of them.
He is a good man, a loyal and trustworthy man who was a wonderful step dad, like two ducks in the pond they were.
Until depression set in and he would pace back and forth saying "I was meant to be alone." Emotional and physical withdrawal set in and after 2 years I moved out.

At that time the house at the stop sign was for sale, pre foreclosure, I bought it to be close to f. parents who had come back apologizing for their misdeeds, manipulating me with their money. I am not for sale. I never left the 2nd man, we remained to best friends and still love oneanother and today communicate well/better than before. I stay with him on weekends. ( he is untouchable )

So I am responsible for my own happiness and secretly questioning what I want. I know you cant have everything but I am unhappy were I am now.
My own house has no energy and I want to move, but ....?