Many years ago I was in therapy with a psychologist. I'll call him "Bill". We bonded very closely...intellectually, instinctively, and there was an undeniable sensual vibe between us. I remained in weekly therapy with Bill for 6 years. The therapy was excellent and productive. We both worked hard with my issues. I know we both recognized how close we felt to each other, but neither of us ever, in any way, crossed therapeutic boundaries.

At the end of my 6th year in therapy, Bill (who worked out of the Veteran's Admin; my husband is a Vietnam vet, so I was able to receive free counseling) had some major disagreements with his supervisor over using what at that time were unusual therapy techniques (meditation, mindfulness, Buddhist philosophy, other alternatives techniques that are now highly regarded in the therapy setting...but this was the military, so nothing "weird" was acceptable). Bill was told he could resign or be fired. I went in for my usual session & Bill told me he'd resigned. The news was devastating to me, and he was very upset, as well. We saw each other one more time, then he moved to another country and got married. I had almost no time to grieve the end of our therapeutic relationship, but I carried on. I was happy when I heard, sometime later, that Bill had gotten married and was having a good life. As far as I know, he retired from the military and gave up practice as a therapist when he left the U.S.

Jump ahead sixteen years. For the past several months I have almost nightly dreams of being in Bill's office. Many of his personal belongings are there and I have volunteered to organize the things in preparation for his return to this country and to his office (although in the dream I know he will only be visiting). I am excited at the anticipation of seeing him again, excited to have a session with him, and there is also a strong sexual energy to the dream, entwined with the excitement of reuniting with someone with whom I feel so close to and inspired by.

Okay, so. Those dreams recur over and again. Same thing...I'm in Bill's office, carefully organizing his belongings, waiting for his arrival. Last night, however, there was a difference in the dream. I had finished organizing Bill's things. He arrived and seemed pleased with the work I'd done. (This dream was the first one in which he actually was in the dream.) The connection between us was a strong as ever - but, by the end of the dream Bill was angry with me. I had no idea why he was angry. I awoke feeling upset and disturbed.

I'm wondering if anyone has any insight to offer about these dreams? Thank you.

[Thunder Bow]

This dream is just showing your fear of some one being angry with you for no reason. You like helping people but some times don't feel appreciated for your efforts. In may be happening with some one you know in your waking life.

[developYourself]

I agree with previous poster. You are probably fragile in terms of interaction with this (maybe unknown?) person. Just let it go and believe in yourself even around people like this.

Thank you both. I'm wondering if I'm the person angry with myself.

[Thunder Bow]

That could be true.