So last night I had one of my not so fantastical, horribly realistic nightmares. In this nightmare I met a girl and she wanted to go into a public bathroom with me to have sex. I said no and then we started talking and she told me she liked me a lot. Then she started telling me about how she is really just looking for someone to have sex with, she isn't really interested in a long term relationship and I told her "Well I'm a virgin because I'm saving myself for a girl who I think I could spend my life with." She got very disappointed by this and made me feel bad and I told her that I'm a very sensitive guy and she said "Eww...guys with feelings are so disgusting. I want a guy who just cares about having sex." Then some time passed and I called her and asked if she was upset with me and she said "No, I forgive you." From there I woke up very hurt.
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In the twilight of life, God will not judge us on our earthly possessions and human successes, but on how well we have loved. + John of the Cross
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