[secretgalaxy]

So I had a dream that I decided to commit suicide and chose to take 1000 pills of Advil. After taking 500 of them, I called the cops to come to my house. After I made the call, I took the rest and went on a walk, thinking that the cops won't be able to find me. The pills started to take effect and I became drowsy and they finally found me and put me in the back seat of their car to take me to the hospital. They said something to me, which I can't recall, but I replied "It's okay, I can always try again."

In real life: First, I was contemplating suicide about a month ago, but the thoughts have gone away almost completely, like 95% of them are gone. Second, I would never take pills, or call the cops, so I don't really understand what it's real meaning is, if there is one. Any ideas???

[Thunder Bow]

In this dream you were saving yourself. You are attempting to change yourself.

[secretgalaxy]

So were the cops stopping me from changing myself? I wonder why I called them then...

[Thunder Bow]

You called them to take you to a place of healing (hospital). You fell asleep and woke again. You are determined to continue with the process of changing.