PLEASE SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT THIS COULD MEAN!
Last night I had a dream that started off positively. My boyfriend and I were happy and holding hands. My ex boyfriend was suddenly there and was talking to us. As we walked through the rooms of a house I never knew, a few old friends from high school were there. Also, more people I never knew. My boyfriend was convinced to stay with my ex boyfriend even though I begged him not to. After kissing him goodbye, I made my way downstairs and met my manager at work. She is pregnant in my dream. Suddenly I start freaking out and I know in my own self what I have to do. She does to. I try to grab the closest thing to me to kill myself, which happens to be a screwdriver. She tries to grab it off of me and I accidently cut her trying to keep my hands on it. She points to the camera in the corner of the room and said "they are not going to be happy about this" and leaves the room to get a bandage. I am searching. Crying. Hysterical. Everything is intense. The scorching temperature, the brighter than the sun lights. I find a knife in a drawer. Considering my options which only seems to be this one. As I hold the knife up to my wrists, I begin to cry harder. I feel so alone. Suddenly, I wish I was because my manager is standing over me watching. She starts laughing at me. Like this was the funniest thing she has ever heard. I'm surrounded by the same few high school friends and generally, a group of people who blur together. They are all surrounding me. Laughing, as I try to get the courage to do it.
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