[Yismymindblank12]

Ok, explain this... So if you don't believe dreams predict the future you don't understand what I go through all the time...

I didn't choose to believe in this, it was just how it worked out it's own self. I didn't really believe in many things that everyone thought weren't real. It impacted me in such a strange way I didn't believe it was one way, but it definitely made all sense in one big picture. I believe dreams can predict the future, but not in the way people see it. As in short term goals and expectations and even long term ones, but it can predict inner future goals and it requires oneself to make it happen. The thing I can't explain is the outside forces and very vivid specific details of places I've never been before at first but have been to them in real life again and again and again.

It's never gone away. It makes me question if my whole existence is one big giant memory and so the feeling that everything was a prediction is true for me, but for others not so much. As in my experience, I had a dream about recent events as a child over and over again. Being sex crazed harlots in weird dungeon chambers, facing religious symbols and fighting demons that have seen to want me dead, as a child I had dreams of adventures fairy tales and much intense vivid wonder. I still have them today, but many of them are repeats of those old dreams, so they haven't left me.

Now I do say some are just subconscious telling me how I suffered my inner ego from my pain and I'm bringing retribution and these dreams do define a goal line which some I have achieved and are awaiting to pass soon.

I did find this to be true on a scientific note and not what I call a prediction of the future by definition. Just me fulfilling my own prophecy, but I'm not done.

Not too long ago, I met my therapist in a psych facility inpatient when I was 14. She was very beautiful and youthful as she does today,

"I had a very strange dream she held me down and forced herself on me to have sex with her to control her urges of her emotions she couldn't handle. That she couldn't handle her job any longer so she needs me to be her guide to herself."

She used to sex on me yes I enjoyed it, but this dream lasted in series of months in my time of being asleep where it shown events where my mother was outside of one of the sessions and discovered her doing this to me. At the time, in the dream I was 14/17 years old. The room was very vivid and had all the carpet the same layout.

What was scary, I had this dream again a year ago, before being her patient for therapy sessions for CBT she had no idea of this for all these years. I told her in one of our early sessions, because it terrified me. I was afraid it would be a reality, what caused this fear, on when I went into the room. I immediately recognized her and her room from the night before.

I do not understand how that happened. The timing and how well my brain new this layout and never been there before ever in my life. I never seen pictures there are no pictures online or anywhere. I just knew she left the inpatient after a female patient assaulted her badly and I remember her storming out crying a lot and told them that their mistreatment of patients and poor lack of maintenance was because the staff didn't help me or anyone there they just caged us like animals. Fed us and played stupid games to pass time, they treated us like crap some of them and others were very caring on trying to get us out.

See how the real thing and the dream came together like that.

Has anyone had this happen to them, because that's called prediction in my book... I didn't expect that to happened it just did. It shocked me how it did.

I have many more cases too, I had a dream about my depression it took the form of fear.

It was slightly subconscious and many themes of death and loved ones dying and things I didn't understand at the time, but those themes themselves some of the specific dreams had truth, before I even knew the truth about my family.

I didn't know my family was broken as it was from the get go, rather I thought we were the perfect immediate and my cousin's aunts and uncles were all happy.

I had a dream that shown me starting about me being abandoned a lot, misunderstood a lot, and tortured during my childhood which mimics my current future, but it shown great triumph of some kind. I don't know what that means yet, but it supposed to be very literally vague timelines of my actual life. The final theme, is I'm supposed to die tragically in an accident of some kind horrifically and I have to face death head on in a way I knew I can handle all my life, but many people couldn't themselves. I had this dream it took many forms, but always the same ending. It was the same dream as in many forms the beginning might be different some small things might be different, but it's so small it's hard to notice.

I had a dream where I was shot, I felt 6 bullets tore through my body how it felt like daggers and blades ripping my insides apart and how I bled out and died at the hospital 3 days later.

I had a dream about new technology, and how this nation will end for real, right under our noses. I don't want to talk about that one. I don't like talking about that one it's too hard to understand. I'm saying even if I told you, you may think you get it, but you can't. I'm not selling anyone short, because I don't believe they aren't stupid, but it's something I felt something I witnessed it's super super hard to explain. I am doing my best explaining this.

I used to believe as a child from these dreams it was my sworn duty to guard the secrets. I didn't have a superpower. I just had a knowledge that I don't even know yet, but I 'm very close to figuring out about life itself. That without me it will take humanity to find out a lot longer than they can imagine now.
I told my therapist about this. It was hard for me to talk about, because I didn't take my previous therapists seriously so I made up stories to run them around in circles to test their skills from learning in their courses about psychology.

They were very easy to manipulate. but I needed to come out so I had to say my darkest secrets on this, because I wanted to feel like maybe I'm crazy to believe this maybe I'm like the crazy people who believe in something and end up harming people because they are just crazy.

I knew I wasn't like them, because I have no need no pleasure out of this, I rather had not known what I know, I keep it secret, because it's a pain in the *** to explain it. I got so used to hiding and suppressing it. I end up forget somethings and some people from there I'm making this up.

It didn't take much convincing from my therapist, she told me, "D.... I don't believe you are psychotic nor you have schizophrenia, I don't believe you are crazy you are highly aware and smarter than you appear to be. You under go through so much trauma and that people don't take you seriously and rather misunderstand you. Hence why you call them stupid.. You want them to listen, but they choose to believe what everyone else believes. Whether they are right or not, you feel you are burdened being alone with something to hold on and you want someone to actually understand where you are coming from and to help thoroughly explain what you mean. I find our sessions very fascinating, I don't think I have anyone like you before...." I asked her about the therapist that talks about he boy from a past life who remembers it, I told her about my experiences with it and she said, "I read the books from him. I love his work. You need to talk to someone about this, but I don't know who."

See that's what I'm trying to tell you.. I'm know what I am and not, you may not see it since I'm just some guy on the internet across the screen somewhere else far away. But all I can do is be straight.

She isn't foolish, she is highly skeptical too, she has lots of people who come in thinking they are elvis presley reincarnated or some spirit or god. Then she has other people who are similar in some things, but are very much unlike me.

I did lots of years researching into this matter, when I look for a scientific answer. I find it frustrating to find it always some short brief, cover up answer that doesn't have very valid reasons to back it up.

with the giant excuse of... "There is no evidence or data to support dreams can predict the future ever. It's a myth until science can prove it." They use that to cover up everything I mean a lot it yeah I can see why that's complete balogna on what people think mediums work through dreams in some of the ways they do.. I look very critically on the phonies and the real deal.

You can find out from their personal character and intentions alone, some may have unexplainable things, but that doesn't mean they are and aren't psychics.

Rather I find science very very much like some conservative party that likes to venture into the known safe stuff about our world that may seem pratical, but those same scientists should be aware way back when those things they look at now, when it comes to atoms, bonding, micro organisms, disease. The people who believed it to be magic, witch craft and God. Are no different than today's scientist's as in the culture wise, in their mindset on being set that's how it all works. They only barely scratched the surface and the rest is speculatory. In fact many of the things in astronomy, NASA, and quantum physics are all forms of some basic forms of knowing and understanding of factual science and the rest applying that factual stuff to everything else to build a giant web of speculation. They do this to everything, same as the people who put all the effort to an agenda that God made it happen so we have to use science to prove it. Why I don't take creationist's anymore serious than some of the scientist's who are great minds, but they are just individuals with great minds. I came to realization I myself am one too, but it's ignorant how they all believe it has to be governed one way. Whether it's natural laws, or the deity to govern them, or that it's an illusion to govern our perceptions on such matters.

So I find my point that, I don't understand my life experience it is beyond science and known religious folklore and legend. Rather I don't understand it at all. I just want answers, rather than trying to make something out of to prove someone else wrong or right. I don't care what others think of it, only people who will take me seriously and help me figure out this.

They don't have to believe me, rather just take a look. I'd be ok with a simple answer, if it actually makes a complete diagnosis going step by step process. I like thorough answers I hate vague answers. It's why I'm considered Atheist, but I'm actually highly spiritual, just not in the way everyone else sees it. I just go by my dreams and experiences guide my life and my only scientific method and proof on this matter is living my life seeing where it goes and finding a pattern and correlation to this. I have gotten very very promising results.

So this is something I wanted to post to get more brains on this.

I don't believe my brain can predict the future in this way naturally on its own. And I feel my guess would be good as yours. Unless someone has something online or anywhere I can read on the matter. Please educate me if you can, and if not thank you for trying.

[Yismymindblank12]

Oh the other dreams are, with the harlots are the sexual fantasies and the actual sexual activity I had in my real life.

I used to have strange to me at the time about sex, I didn't understand it. Even though I was raped as a kid, I still didn't understand it.

So theses dreams confused me, the harlots to many forms as of myself or how I feel of myself or my own sexual ego of myself coming out. I found out about my sexual preferences from this dream I had when I had sex with an emotional other have a man my age, but he was the perfect guy for me I loved him a lot. He affects me even though he was in my dream as a true friend, but we had sex, but it was awkward. I loved it at first, but then I realized. It's not for me. I told him
"we can't do this.. I don't think it's wrong I love you the way you are, but I can't feel my body is up for this. You see, I'm not gay I thought I was but I found out I wasn't. It wouldn't be fair to me and you if I kept going on like this. " That was quoted exactly.

It's strange because I never had consent from another man, but it was an honest dream.

So on to the crazy stuff, I had a dream about a girl I was in love with she was my teacher my lover and my best friend. How she became my teacher, because I loved her so much I wanted to take care of myself just to be with her. I wanted her to realize I would sacrifice anything to love her. Even my own life my soul and everything. This dream where she was my best friend in different lives we were intertwined and incased in some crystal ice after passing in a coffin dead together. We held each other in eternity because our energies combined to finally meet a goal I only wanted my whole life. The only peace I want is to be with her to the very end.

I feel I have may already being with this girl now, but I'm very very quiet and subtle about this. I want this relationship to grow naturally I will not tell her anything. I don't tell anyone I'm dating nor my friends. This is the first time I'm mentioning it, because I want it to work for real.

She would come after I'm nearing wanting to kill myself from my madness that surrounded me. That despite the world being destroyed in my dreams everyone died and I got scared and she hugged me confidently and assured me "I'm not letting you go. You are precious to me. I don't care how mad you are at me and how much I may have hurt you. You were always here for me. I love you too much to let you walk away like that." She brought my fears about life and death away instantly, because she is who I loved all along and someone I wanted to live and experience life with.

this current girl gives me the same vibe, but like many other imposters, she maybe one as well.

this part of me, is where I criticize myself as psychotic, to almost break myself to many lengths of unneeded suffering. Like some ritual almost, but in the end, I find it rather some of it useless leaving me confused and left in despair about my existence altogether, but it's why I don't believe in love how everyone else does. This person even if she is real or not. She's real enough for me, she will appear in time when she does.

In a different dream related to her, she appears in a lot of my dreams. She's running from me a lot she wants me to find her in real physical form. She told me I won't recognize her and she won't to me either till we speak and open up. It will all work itself out, because it was supposed to not like I had a choice nor did she, but we aren't complaining. It's what we would of wanted anyways.

It creeps me out how people in my life who are "mediums" many don't understand, but the ones who do. Find out that about my "powerful experience" "your perfect" and lastly, "I never felt anything so powerful before ever in my life". These are usually grown people with much experience and wisdom behind them. People who are in their 40's to 80's also young people too. They say the same things, like it's they all know, but don't at the same time.

It really does creep me out how much of a bigger plan of something that I don't understand is revolving around me and everyone else. I don't know where this fits. I don't have a place to put it, so I don't put it in any category. It's neither spiritual nor scientific. I don't care what anyone else believes or thinks whether they want to or not.
I knew and loved this girl before anyone else had. That's why she picked me, I would fight and die in honor for her. I would be the best I can be and help protect myself and be a good person for her. Without her I'm un caged and wild and lost. I don't get angry or take it out on others. Just on myself, she knows how I am and knows who I am and feels she is going to be the one to replace all the loss I have currently in my life and fill me back with what I needed. Without holding my hand, she will scold me when I'm not in my right mind and she will know tough love when needed, and also knows when to hold on to me let me cry and let me help her. She knows because that's all she wanted and that simplicity made her life worth living.

Sorry I gotta go to bed.

[Thunder Bow]

Thank you for submitting this Term Paper here. You are really smart. Your therapy is working, hang in there.