[wheredidthepartygo]

i've just gotta get this out
last night i had a dream i was with my dad and i was little and i can't remember how it started of course but he

Possible trigger:

had his penis out and then he was asking me to suck it and my little sister was there and i knew i wasn't supposed to but i just did it anyway??? then we were in bed under the blankets and i was still doing it but i was really worried someone would come in and see and know because they'd see my head going up and down under the sheets.

i'm sorry i just needed to say it. gotta write it out to accept it was real. didn't know if i should put it here or on the survivors of abuse section. thanks for listening

[healingme4me]

Sounds like a dreadful dream. If a repressed memory, as you're alluding to by questioning which forum, it's best worked through with a clinically trained therapist that specializes in csa work.

[MusicMike]

Just keep in mind sexual abuse dreams can appear for reasons other than being repressed memories. They can be symbolic of how you were treated emotionally or how you are relating to yourself emotionally. That is the case with me - - when I was first in therapy I had many sexual abuse dreams but I discovered they were symbolic for how I was relating to myself.

It could also be a memory.

Do you have any conscious memories of CSA?