[CoffeeLove]

Last night I was plagued by the usual night terrors, they alone are wearing my heart and soul to shreds but I had another new dream last night and it has been playing on my mind all day.

I know it wont sound like much when I tell you all about this dream but please have it in mind that this dream went on and on and on and on and on. I was walking alone in the night along a dirt road in the middle of nowhere when a shrill shrieking shattered the silence of the night, I span around with my heart in my throat and found myself in nothing but whiteness, I could see my own body as normal but everything else was gone, there was just whiteness all around, nothing else, just empty endless white, no shadows, no horizon, nothing but whiteness. I felt suffocated and my limbs were burning with icy fire, I tried to call out but my voice was silent, I tried to scream but only the hiss of my breath escaping could be heard.


Can anyone tell me what that was all about.

[Out There]

I hear a silent scream. Looking into the lyrics and meaning of " Epitaph " by King Crimson was helpful for me.

[Thunder Bow]

You might be feeling this way in a real life situation. Look around you and see what it is.

[medkev13]

Working backwards...

Trying to scream/talk but being unable to is often referring to the sense of powerlessness, or having no voice of your own.

The white void is a singularity. It could relate to being alone... or it could relate to being lost. The emotion and focus that came with facing the white expanse is important. What was your initial reaction? What was your first worry about it?

Walking down an isolated road (the word "isolated" just popped in my head. Might be intuition for this...) Were you lost? Were you simply wandering? There is still (though this is the root of the thought) this theme of being alone, by one's self.

In fact, let's address the pivotal moment as a whole. There was a shriek - did you know whose shriek it was? Was the source physically nearby or was it just in the air??? Then you turned and faced an eternal whiteness. (White can relate to many things. Here, it seems as nothingness, but is it a positive nothingness like a blank slate, or is it destructive like having the whole world taken away?) What was your initial thought reaction to the whiteness. You said you were afraid - what was driving the fear???

[CoffeeLove]

Originally Posted by medkev13

Trying to scream/talk but being unable to is often referring to the sense of powerlessness, or having no voice of your own.

Now that does make perfect sense, I feel totally powerless in regards to many things which are happening in my life right now.

Originally Posted by medkev13

The white void is a singularity. It could relate to being alone... or it could relate to being lost. The emotion and focus that came with facing the white expanse is important. What was your initial reaction? What was your first worry about it?

My initial reaction, I spread my arms wide and crouched down as if preparing to be attacked, my initial thoughts were of my children and why they weren't with me, which is weird because they weren't with me on the track either, I felt very confused and scared.

Originally Posted by medkev13

Walking down an isolated road (the word "isolated" just popped in my head. Might be intuition for this...) Were you lost? Were you simply wandering? There is still (though this is the root of the thought) this theme of being alone, by one's self.

I didn't recognise the track nor did I understand why I was there, I was lost and trying to figure out where I was and what I was doing there, it was very dark and I was very very cold and really hungry oddly.

Originally Posted by medkev13

In fact, let's address the pivotal moment as a whole. There was a shriek - did you know whose shriek it was? Was the source physically nearby or was it just in the air??? Then you turned and faced an eternal whiteness. (White can relate to many things. Here, it seems as nothingness, but is it a positive nothingness like a blank slate, or is it destructive like having the whole world taken away?) What was your initial thought reaction to the whiteness. You said you were afraid - what was driving the fear???

The shriek didn't seem entirely human but nor did it seem to be a wild animal, it was like an Owl but it wasn't an Owl because there was anger, no not anger, hunger perhaps, like a beast hunting prey and getting close to the kill maybe, it also seemed a little mechanical in some sense as well, it wasn't entirely a natural sound, the sound came from behind me to the left.

The whiteness didn't feel threatening but nor did it feel welcoming, more as if it had taken everything away and refusing to let me be a part of anything real. I was afraid because there was literally nothing, the whiteness didn't have any depth or reach or expanse, I could see my hands and legs and front torso but beyond my own physical construct there was nothing there, as if the whiteness was engulfing me tightly but it didn't hold me, I could move my limbs but there was no sense of movement as there was nothing but whiteness, there was no reference of movement outside of my limbs moving.

I wanted out of the whiteness and I felt like I was being watched, or followed or both, it felt like I had been taken out of reality and placed somewhere by an unseen force, as if it were a game of some sort for something, but there was no sense of play here, I was in terrible danger and I could sense what ever had put me there was closing in on me.

[medkev13]

If the shriek was from an animal, even unseen, this would most likely be the call of your anima (the feminine/primitive/instinctual self). My first reaction here is to wonder what owls represent to you, barring the predator/being hunted situation. What an animal represents in the dreamer's mind will often relate to what their presence in the dream is related to...

You talk about the whiteness as if it's not an emptiness, but something more like a veil. Something that is keeping you from seeing/interacting with the world... I see that you have agoraphobia on your concerns list (yes, I check that - you'd be surprised just how much that list helps with interpreting dreams ). Has the phobia been worse lately? Is it creating a cause of concern? This would be the most likely source of something removing you from the world.

Waking down the isolated path would simply be the reflection of feeling lost and not knowing where you're going or what you need to be doing (you practically said it yourself). So then ask yourself, where in your life are you feeling directionless/without purpose? That may be what the majority of this dream relates to. Then consider the following two thought points...

--> How is your phobia making this situation worse?
--> How do traits that relate to your meaning of what an owl is give you strength?

Possible trigger:

I understand that the owl here is something negative in the dream, but as all things in the dream are yourself, we typically find that even negative animal characters are simple parts of the self being ignored or neglected. The animal lashes out as a way of gaining attention.

The being hunted may be as simple as a result of the PTSD you also list. It reflects the feeling of being weak and reinforces the helplessness.