[ladyrevan21]

Hey. Sorry I haven't posted on here in a while; I admit I can't really remember my dreams at times. (Which may or may not be a blessing) But I know I had two nightmares that scared me to the point of having to sleep with the light on twice. I don't quite remember the first, but I remember the second, which involved having to fight off some sort of pirate boogeyman that came out at night (and was sort of a "black widow" type. Not like in The Avengers but...y'know). And I had another dream which, fortunately, didn't leave me sleeping with the lights on. Mostly I remember a lot of influence from both Knights of the Old Republic games, and someone causing a blackout just by clicking a certain instrument. I also remember there was quite a bit of emphasis on different colors -- yellow, black, green, etc.

I hope that made sense; I'm trying to remember whatever details I can.

[ladyrevan21]

Actually, I think I remember the first nightmare.

Possible trigger:

It was sort of like I was in an endless loop trying to save a baby from someone trying to sacrifice it. Sometimes I'd actually run into the perpetrator's creepy (and I mean creepy) stepdad who'd try and hit on me, sometimes I'd try to go to the police and they wouldn't believe me...mostly I was just trying to keep the baby safe from the woman trying to sacrifice her. I think I even gave the baby a name in the dream -- Jamie.

That's what I remember, at least.

[Thunder Bow]

Saving Jamie, means you are saving yourself. Probably from bad feelings. Or from sacrificing yourself in a real life situation.

[ladyrevan21]

That's really awesome. Seriously. I think it could definitely be that -- considering all those bad feelings I've had, it could be a reflection of me trying to take care of myself. "Mothering" myself, in a way.

I also remember thinking about having kids and thinking that if I had a daughter (emphasis on "if", of course; I don't think I'm ready to have children yet), naming her Jamie. So maybe it's kind of reflective of that as well?

[Thunder Bow]

"Jamie" is your new self.

[ladyrevan21]

It could be. I think it could be a better me -- some of the symptoms I've been struggling with resolved. It helps that I identified with Jamie in the Halloween movies when I first watched them in 2013 -- which seems to be the root of a lot of my issues. I don't know if that's really relevant to this, but I found that in a lot of the anger I was struggling with that year, I identified with Jamie. Add in the matter of the Michael dream and I guess I have my own shadow side to integrate. (Or combat?)

The more I really think on this, the more I realize how much...ugliness I was carrying around. I wonder what else is waiting beneath the surface, honestly.

[medkev13]

Thunderbow, you took the words out of my mouth.

Remember that the villains and monsters in the dream are also you. Make a point to accept them and turn them into positive character traits. Combating them almost never works to end the struggle, much as stifling the animal characters always leads to them getting out of control.

[ladyrevan21]

I could do that. I really, honestly could do that.