Another Realistic Dream

I often have realistic dreams of things that could actually possibly happen. Last night I had another one of these.

So last year a friendship ended with someone who I fell completely in love with. I had never felt this strongly about someone in my life and I believe early in the friendship she may of had some sort of romantic feelings towards me as well, but nothing really developed in that aspect of the friendship. So then last year, just one day she disappeared from my social media so it seemed like she must of blocked me for a reason I'm still unsure of at this point. I've been romantically lonely for quite a few years now which feeds into my depression and after we stopped talking, especially due to never having had feelings that strongly for someone before, it made me hopeless about ever finding someone. So that's the backstory to just set up this dream.

So in the dream she ends up adding me again on Facebook. We begin talking again and I'm very happy. We start learning about what each other have been up to lately. Then she mentions that she has very strong feelings for a guy who she has met. I feel a bit disappointed, but at the same time it moreso just solidifies my already existing belief that I'll always be alone. Regardless, I open up to her about the fact that I still have very strong feelings for her and she says that's very sweet. That's about as far as it got in that discussion. The rest of the dream I don't really remember much of. Like the rest felt like just filler that happened between those events.

But yeah, my dreams tend to be very realistic like this and often if they aren't about a family member or something along those lines, they are a dream that has something to do about failing at relationships in some way whether it is being cheated on, being left for someone else, being left for being socially anxious, or having unrequited love towards someone. Often my mind creates a fictional person to fill in different people as the love interest, but I guess last night it decided to delve into a story involving her. Which is odd since nothing really happened differently in my waking world that involved her, I still often think about her so it isn't like I've just all of a sudden starting thinking about her again. Guess my drain just wanted to explore that path more directly in dream form last night.

The dream shows that social media can be a barrier to meeting someone. It shows that people on social media just come and go. Your mind was processing real life.