[rise13eyond]

I keep having this dream lately...well not the same dream exactly but same general themes with the details of what happens a bit different. But I'm always back in Japan(I studied abroad in college) and restricted somehow. Like the other night I was with family and we were staying at someone's house. I wasn't allowed to go anywhere unless everyone was with me but no one would go anywhere with me. Oddly enough this only applied to me because anyone else could do whatever they wanted....and they didn't, they didn't want to do anything so I was stuck in the same place not even allowed to go go outside. And then this one about a week or so ago where I was with my dad. We were in a really sketchy part of a city that was mostly made up of iffy apartments and stands. My dad was working at one, I think that's why we were there. I felt so lost and bit unnerved by the looks I was getting. I was hungry and needed clothes but I had no money, so I was out of luck. I don't really remember the details of any of the other dreams. But it all just seems so strange to me. I mean I can get why I'd dream about going to Japan, I love Japan I really want to go back, but in these dreams I'm always there under less than ideal circumstances and don't get to enjoy it, that's if it's not a flat out miserable experience because one dream that I remember part of was I was staying with someone who regularly offered to board tourists in his house, but he only let the ones he liked stay, and then I found out that he was a sexual predator, particularly to those who were young or looked young...kinda fits me because I do look really young for my age. Anyway that one actually makes the most sense because of things that actually did happen, the others...not so much.