I have been a heavy smoker for years and years. It has been a huge part of my life and I admit that I enjoy it - especially with a few drinks or coffee and after a meal

I know smoking is bad for your health and my chest is not as good as it should be. I always know that I shouldn't smoke but the addiction wins out every time. It's like the good versus the evil battle going on in my brain. Half of me says no don't do it, you don't need it, etc and the other half says go on and have one, etc,etc. I have tried quitting before and I think the longest I have lasted is 2-3 months but that was with patches. Even with patches I find it difficult and particularly when I see other people smoking I really, really feel like one. All my smoking friends with the exception of 2 have given up over the years and I now feel like the black sheep in alot of social settings. Also I have let smoking govern my life in many ways as it always seems to take priority with choices I make etc. I really, really hope that I can maintain it this time. It has been a huge 24 hours without a ciggy but I am wearing a patch as it definitely helps me cope with the cravings. I envy people who have that strength of character to just say "that's it" and give up. I struggle so much with it quitting

Why is it so hard for some people to quit

I am sitting here, patch on, typing this and every 30 seconds my brain thinks about a cigarette and thoughts about going to the shop to buy some or some other related thoughts run through my brain. 30 seconds later the brain is saying No don't do it, be strong!!