Thursday, the 23rd, I hopped a Southwest flight to St. Louis to take a little trip by myself before I start back to school next month. I had a wonderful time & felt better about myself, my OCD didn't bother me, & ED didn't bother me as much. Now that I'm home today, I feel badly about myself, want to go back to ED's old ways, & I know my OCD will bother me again.

I see my psychologist & dietician again this week, thank goodness!
I wish it were last week, when I had my trip to look forward to! Now that I'm home, I'm sad. I know I will be for a few days, just like I am every time I get back from a trip.


All of a sudden, I have tears in my eyes & want to just cry!