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Jan 06, 2010, 08:25 PM
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Please don't read this if you might be triggered. I mention specific flaws and it could upset you if you think you have the same flaws, or if you are the type to start scrutinizing those same parts of yourself after I bring it up. I don't want to hurt anyone by my post.
Still here? I hate my skin. I hate it from my enlarged pores, my newly developing wrinkles, my varicose veins, my stretch marks (had some since puberty, but more now), my sagging breasts, my ocassionally red cheeks (not in a good way), my blackheads, and my cellulite that is poking through that loose webbing inside me. Oh, and the color. I seriously feel like such a BS'er because I cover my skin in makeup all the time. I think, if men knew they kissed or did anything with a woman who looks like I do without makeup, they would feel disgusted. I feel embarassed to let anyone I know see me without it, and somewhat uncomfortable without it, even around strangers. Right now, I want to talk about skin color. I actually like dark and pale skin, so it isn't that I hate my skin color- it is that I hate it on me. I want dark skin. I am seriously considering drastic measures to get it. But I don't see the point when I am so ugly inside. Blargh.
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"....I've been treated so long as if I'm becoming untouchable. I'm a slow dying flower, in the frost killing hour, the sweet turning sour & untouchable....(portion omitted)....Do you remember the way that you touched me before, all the trembling sweetness I loved and adored? Your face saving promises whispered like prayers- I don't need them."- My Skin by Natalie Merchant. “The fishermen know that the sea is dangerous and the storm terrible, but they have never found these dangers sufficient reason for remaining ashore.”- Vincent Van Gogh ""Don't talk of worlds that never were. The end is all that's ever true."- Burn by the Cure "In the end only kindness matters."- Hands by Jewel Dragons-please click so they hatch and live!    
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Jan 07, 2010, 03:10 AM
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You are very hard on yourself. What can you do to make you feel better about yourself?
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Jan 23, 2010, 09:12 PM
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Dear Locust,
 A Mini-Experiment: Could you ask 7 people (a variety of ages) you think highly of & who you believe know you well & would be very honest w/ you. Ask them to write or list all of the qualities they see about you & within you. Ask them for honesty. Collect in a few days. & analyze. Would you let us know the results? Love You unconditionally,  Holmes |
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Jan 28, 2010, 12:14 AM
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How are you doing, Locust?
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Feb 01, 2010, 12:59 PM
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Locust.
You are so passionate for hating yourself. It wasnt long ago that I could be saying those very things about myself, with that same passion. I hated my skin too. And everything else about me. Even the way I pronounced things! My friend helped me. We said positive things about me. It was very hard to take. How could I listen to good things about me? What good things are associated with me?? Do it. It changed me. Write 10 good things about yourself. Hang that list up somewhere where you'll find it--bathroom, kitchen, bedroom door. What a difference. Keep us updated. |
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