[yeliab12]

Bailey, 18.

I am stuck. I almost feel like I shouldn't talk to my boyfriend during the week to feel better. We only see each other Thurs. Fri. Sat. (Sun. sometimes) Only because I'm focusing on school.

We had a fight the other day about my trust issues. I can't trust myself to trust him. I know he wouldn't do anything deep down. I'm just used to "investigating" and I'm always feeling like there is something I don't know. I hate that feeling. We have gotten to the point where I know if I don't fix this, we don't have a future together.

During that fight he was saying how I'm not happy. I'm not happy with myself. So how can I be in a relationship if I'm unhappy and can't trust myself? I know he's right. I almost feel like space will help a little bit to clear my mind. But how do I build up happiness and trust with myself?

[smmath]

maybe try making a list of all the good qualities that i KNOW you have . i did that in a teen self-injury work book and it kind of helped. also think about all the good things that you've done and that people have said to you.
Do you see or have a therapist? having one might be a good idea

i really hope you can learn to love and trust yourself. i KNOW you can get to that point.

--Sam

[yeliab12]

I'm considering seeing a therapist, but I know it's not covered under my insurance. What do I do if I can't see a therapist when I've been told to see one multiple times? At first I didn't believe in that, but now I'm starting to feel like I can't handle this all on my own. I definitely need some guidance.
Thank you for your advice smmath