[TheDarkSkys]

I don't have a reason to live. All I do is waste. I am a waste of time, space food, water, energy, life. Everything I try always fails and I can't do it anymore. I can't live knowing I'll never amount to anything, but deep down I know I won't. The only thing I've ever felt proud of is my poetry, but it scares the people I show it to. Not just that, I'm ugly too. What a perfect combination, Useless, scary, and ugly. Why was I born anyway?

[Jan1212]

How old are you? Do you talk with your parents? How long have you been feeling this way?

[plumapplepear]

When I get alot of self-hatred I try to escape into a movie or book that takes away some of the pain until those intense feelings slough off a little fresh air seems to help. Do you have anyone to talk to?

[Ilikeplainlicorice]

If you're alive you'll never be a waste of space. You can't do anyone any good if you're... dead. You need to look deep inside man. You sound like you have a lot to offer actually. Your poetry, what it's a little dark? So what!? Ever hear of Shakespeare, some of his plays/works were pretty gloomy, Edgar Allen Poe, very famous for his dark stuff. Why not work with what you have now. Maybe start a book, never know if it gets published and maybe a movie? Hmm... there's a lot that you can amount to. You can't forget that you were born. And everything that is born to live, has a purpose, and some day we'll know what that is. Skys don't give up on anything, especially on yourself.

Originally Posted by TheDarkSkys

I don't have a reason to live. All I do is waste. I am a waste of time, space food, water, energy, life. Everything I try always fails and I can't do it anymore. I can't live knowing I'll never amount to anything, but deep down I know I won't. The only thing I've ever felt proud of is my poetry, but it scares the people I show it to. Not just that, I'm ugly too. What a perfect combination, Useless, scary, and ugly. Why was I born anyway?

hugs to you.

seems like we're in the same sort of boat

my poetry is the only thing i'm proud of as well

[bharani1008]

I know how you feel. I feel the same way. Maybe you could find some safe way of helping other people, like a soup kitchen or charity activities. Then you'll be doing something wonderful and you'll be needed for real.
I hope you feel better

[Nape]

There is no person who is UGLY or USELESS. Try to look at it , you are living... you could do something... Do something with it and make a difference! By your little acts which could be beneficial , you could help. I know that everyone is not USEFUL to the society but there is no one who is USELESS... maybe they just don't have a direction or maybe they don't have the heart or time to help other but there is nobody who is USELESS. You have a talent , try and nourish it... It may sound or look scary but it's what you are passionate about... Do not get very affected by the opinion of others because it's just their judgement... use their judgement for opinions which may help you change but do not entirely change since you are passionate about it... just try to improve yourself maybe sooner or later they will love your works and you might even become a famous poet . Lastly , there is no one who is ugly... Don't think that you are ugly. Every person are equal ... you and that beautiful/handsome-looking person are equal and it's just the external look of the person. You and him/her is a person so you are equal and it's not about the physical looks but what matter in the person is more of his/her heart. UGLY is just an illusion , everyone is equally beautiful .

[Think]

I FAIL many times but am not a FAILURE, - it is easy to generalise because of our experiences in life and unfortunately some of those experiences have also been accompanied by LIES such as you are no good, not worth anything etc etc.

You have infinite WORTH just as you ARE no matter what people have said or your experiences or what you do.

Oh and another thing - Comparison can be destructive so try to REFOCUS on engaging with people, being yourself, and most of all be KIND TO yourself.

All the very best

[TheDarkSkys]

Thanks everyone. I'm going to be honest, I cried reading some of the stuff you said. I have a few freinds who have been making things much better, and I am halfway through alittle book I've been writing. I love you all

[BodyMindSoul]

TheDarkSkys, I think you are the most beautiful thing in the face of the sun. I can tell by reading what you wrote. I think that the feelings you have of self-concern are not created by yourself but were programmed by the society. If you ever need a friend, I am here. I like listening to music that uplifts my spirits. Kindness