[-jimi-]

Lately I have come up against some very challenging people and opinions.

I must say they have shook me up A LOT.

People used to see me as smart, I also self identified as smart
People saw me as having good logic, stripped from everything that confused people, I identified as having those skills
People saw me as creative, I've always felt creative, like that is the most important thing
People saw me at being great at language, and I thought OK, I am

Then.... recently

People don't see me as smart
They claim I am irrational and can't follow simple logic
That everything I write is really, really boring
That I shouldn't even talk about language, because I'm basically a child that knows nothing.

If I suck so much at those few things I thought I had, then what am I? Pretty much nothing.

I'm so scared that they are right and I don't have anything of what I thought I had. It is terrifying. Like the universe is doing a big evil laughter thing. Like You thought you were something.

NOW YOU KNOW.

[kaliope]

this is a lesson in not worrying what others think of you. you know what you are good at, what builds your self esteem, what you identify with and that is all that is important. do not let others judge you and tear you down. it doesn't matter what other people say. you know who you are. stay strong in that. do not let others define you.