[CrazyOrNot]

I feel totally embaressed to talk about this but often I feel really intimidated by other people. Like today I went to the supermarket and there were two guys in the line in front of me.

By the way that they dressed, talked and behaved, I could tell they weren't exactly from a high social status, but why am I still intimidated by this?

I guess the kind of people that 'don't give a dang' are more likely to have a big mouth and I know that I am, especially today kindoff low on self-esteem. As a matter of fact, I've been low on self-esteem for 28 years now.

So anyway I'm still not sure why I at that moment I am especially intimidated to encounter that type of person, how do I explain this, things that go through my head are; "don't make a mistake or they will laugh at you, and then you will become mad, but you can't do nothing against it, because you should just be able to take that stuff, and you can't beat them up anyway because they're too big and with two of them."

Nothing happened ofcourse.. but I was already thinking that they were thinking I was some sort of sissy for some reason. Probably because I feel this way about myself, I always think for some reason negatively about myself when I do about others, or am thinking negatively in general. It's so damn tough to stay positive.

Why the hell can't I get over this sensitivity, or have I always been this way.. how do you become less sensitive in general anyway? I tried reading articles on ehow about sensitivity but I am really getting the idea this is just how you are wired and there's nothing you can do about it except taking medicine for this.

I am taking medicine but despite it I still am very low on self-esteem; still live with my parents, live on benefit so no job, and have no confidence to go even on an interview for a job that I know I would be able to handle, but I am just so scared to be embaressed and not live up to their expectations and make mistakes.

I already get stressed even thinking about applying for a job that holds some sort of responsibility, but at the same time I don't want to go back to the depressing treadmill jobs in the factory that I've been having on and off the last couple of years.

Guess I'll close up this post for now, might be getting too long..

Not sure what I'm asking but if anyone can tell me something or give advice that would be nice.

Thanks!

Nothing happened ofcourse.. but I was already thinking that they were thinking I was some sort of sissy for some reason. Probably because I feel this way about myself, I always think for some reason negatively about myself when I do about others, or am thinking negatively in general. It's so damn tough to stay positive.

I think this is what you need to focus on. This is an internal problem in effect that probably has no basis in reality. You have no way of knowing what others are thinking. It sounds like you are expecting others to think what you are fearing they will think....because that's what you are thinking yourself. That's pretty much what you said in that paragraph I quoted. I think that most of us do that to an extent but when you take it to the level you've taken it to then it becomes a problem and it's time to work on it.

[yellowted]

when you feel like this try imagining them in nothing but micky mouse underwear, you will soon realise underneath they are no different from anyone else!

[avlady]

Listen to "I don't Care Anymore" by Phil Collins!!!!

[CrazyOrNot]

Thanks for all your replies.

I'm under the impression it's caused by too much emotional sensitivity. But then again I wonder, should I focus on becoming less sensitive (emotion forum) or becoming more confident (this forum) because that's what steers the emotions? Or does it not work like that. I'm confused.

I think you should focus on the reason for the thing you perceive as emotional sensitivity. I think you're projecting your thoughts on others.
Of course there are bullies and assholes out there who might give you a hard time. They are out there for all of us.
But you already stated the most important thing here yourself

...but I was already thinking that they were thinking I was some sort of sissy for some reason. Probably because I feel this way about myself...

Originally Posted by CrazyOrNot

Thanks for all your replies.

I'm under the impression it's caused by too much emotional sensitivity. But then again I wonder, should I focus on becoming less sensitive (emotion forum) or becoming more confident (this forum) because that's what steers the emotions? Or does it not work like that. I'm confused.

[Trippin2.0]

Originally Posted by CrazyOrNot

I am taking medicine but despite it I still am very low on self-esteem

Self-esteem is not available in pill form, it needs to be nurtured and fed, like a small child or plant.

I suggest working on this issue, (therapy would be ideal) because you're never going to find a packaged version of it on a shelf, and so will remain dissapointed.