[winterglen]

It seems like every time someone looks at me, they are scolding me for doing something wrong or getting in their way. I'm starting to feel like the only reason I exist is so people can tell me how stupid I am and how I should be trying harder. I know I should be doing better, but I'm too exhausted to want to fix my problems.

I try, but it doesn't seem to get anywhere, and people tell be it's because I'm not trying hard enough. Even though I know they're right, they make it sound so easy, and it's not.

My college practicum is coming up. I'm dreading it. I don't want to open myself to yet another set of people to criticize me. I don't think my brain can take in any new information or skills that I should be learning. My mind and body have basically shut down to any self improvement.

[Travelinglady]

I grew up in a very critical home, so I can sort of understand. At least they are trying to be helpful, I assume. You are in college, which is quite an accomplishment.

[opioja]

Hey winterglen, I feel for you. It's really hard to feel like you're not appreciated. But hey like travelinglady says being in college is a huge accomplishment! And don't worry, you have intrinsic self-worth as well! Deep down everyone's worth being loved.

When I feel like I don't want to do anything I start with the smallest things. I go and take out the trash or clean my room and at the end of it I can feel proud of myself for doing that. And that's how you should feel too, proud of yourself! It's the small things that create the future for me.