Hi, my personal situation is that I suffer from depression and I was already not very happy previously. But I had a good job where I had friends and was respected and interested. Then I met a guy who hurt me and disrespected me. It was a huge blow to my self-esteem and I still have difficulty recovering from it. However, he is my boyfriend now. I do love him but this hurt wont go away completely. Moreover, I think I am a failure because I have a basic job even if I like it. I am a legal assistant. I feel like I am nobody. And my relationship is in a sense a damaged and failed relationship (however, I tried to find something else but it si up to now the best possible way for me).
How do you find self-esteem? If you are not loved, not respected, if you have a basic job, no family. It's hard to exist in an empty bubble.
I do creative stuff to help me heal. But it is hard to always push myself. Sometimes I wish things were easier and more natural.. more given to me I guess..
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