I feel like **** actually. I feel scared mostly, and I am not like a typical teenager, I feel physical pain whenever I stand.


The physical pain doesn't stop me from pacing around in my house for at least an hour. Nor do I feel any pain while I am doing my chemistry lab work.


I figured out, I could ignore my pain and it won't be as painful as if it could have been if I were concentrating on it.

I also figured out, I can ignore my anxiety and be a typical teenager. SUREEEEEEEE it won't give me 100% results, but eventually I'd increase my 'normalness.'

I figured out if I concentrate on studies, I will get accepted in med school.

> Accepted in med school
> Gets a bike.
> Gets cash so could hang out with friends AS WELL AS buy some suitable attire.
> Passes the semester
> Repeat.

Now. I know, a lot of problems can be in the way and I am sugarcoating it when I am saying I can stay in a hostel. Initial reaction of roomates would be a bit 'ehmmm?' BUT the doctors are there, okay? I just need to stay calm and focused.

- The Not So Lonely Doctor.

[Skeezyks]

I know I've read a number of times in different places that there's something to be said for "fake it until you make it." In fact there is an article in PsychCentral's archives on that very subject. Here's a link:

3 Reasons Why "Fake It Til You Make It" is Great Advice | After Trauma

Thank you for sharing the article, Skeezyks.