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No, I don’t mean low self-esteem I mean extremely self obsessed. I think that I am better than other people but something tells me that this is wrong. Something inside me is feeling like I am not what I think I am this kind of hurts my self-esteem cannot be really you know measured unless other people tell me
I’m so glad there is a place here to share. I feel better now already but don’t you think people will judge me for it
If I am judging people all the time
That they’re not mature or they’re emotionally this or that
This is really painful It’s giving me earache
Because of the stress, the breathing so difficult
But it’s okay I guess I will find a way out. I will ask my Therapist how to deal with overconfidence
What is another word for overconfidence?
Narcissism?
I don’t know
I am a little self-centred and selfish. I think that is a good word.
I will tell my Therapist mam. I think I am becoming selfish and self-centred. This is affecting me because I tend to judge people in this will stop me from making friends
Maybe not stop me like I can make friends, but I will be quick to judge
For example, my friend, he didn’t understand how I felt when my mom called me
She called my name, and I was terrified
Because of the way she called me
And then she went off, and I had to follow her
When I came back, I told him that that is going to haunt me
He said what’s the big deal it’s just your mom calling you
He doesn’t understand that some moms are not normal
I literally read a book and it says that she is narcissistic
Like how is that even possible?
She was Manipulating me by telling me that my memory is all fogged up
She told me, I am the reason my parents are having problems
So this can’t be good
But most people don’t understand
At least here somebody understands
There are so many people going through so much stuff
I’m glad I can share a feel better now
It’s like there is always someone to hear
It’s not like my WhatsApp friends
They’re not online, and they’re all younger than me
They don’t understand what I’m going through
The people who are my age either don’t like me or or too busy
There is a part inside me I know which is hurting
Which is why I tend to judge others has lesser than me

That doesn’t change the fact that everyone is imperfect
Why do I want to be perfect so badly?
Maybe because my mom made it seem like the ultimate thing
My friend also said that I am to immature
And that made me very insecure
The world so harsh
But some people are nice
I have experienced very less of that
I hope I find more people
Thank God God be with you all
But I still don’t know what to do