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I just got back from my T session not long ago....and I'm still trying to process everything.

He says that I have to report the sexual incident that I saw to DYFS. It's the law.

Damn.

[Sannah]

So what does this mean to you?

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I am struggling with it.

I am afraid of how my neighbors will feel about it....especially since they are a source of some turmoil in my life.

I am afraid of what the stepdad could do to me if he finds out that I made the call. He is a ticking timebomb...and he was the one who participated in the sexual activity with my husband towards me....and has other very scary issues going on (alcoholism, won't leave the house, severe anger issues)....

I would prefer to be anonymous, but I don't see how that could happen when I was the one who witnessed it. (Although another neighbor said she saw the straddling part....and it is being talked about in the neighborhood).....

My T is asking me to confirm to him when I've made the call and who I spoke with, for his records.....which makes it seem so documented that I am the one who made the call.

I responded to my T that I need to talk to him about this with him before I make that call.

[Sannah]

These reports are anonymous. Did you explain all of this info to your T?

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I tried to....but he didn't have time for me. He said that the call needed to be made - and he understands it can be linked to me - but if I didn't call, he would have to.

It's a done deal.

I didn't make the call....whew....but I don't know who did. I got home from a doctor's appt to find a state vehicle parked DIRECTLY in front of my house...and there was a card from DYFS sitting in my door. I called the guy and left a message.

He was in my neighbor's house....when they came out, they walked to their car - and I called them over to me. They said that they do want to talk to me but had another call to go to. They will be calling me afterwards or first thing Monday morning.

I asked them how I was identified...they said that the children were forthcoming about how I stopped them....so they want to talk to me.

That's actually a relief....but I am very curious to know whether or not my T went ahead and made that call....cuz WHY did DYFS park in FRONT OF MY HOUSE and not theirs?

It makes me quite angry because my T didn't even hear me out about my concerns. I was planning to make the call - but wanted to be sure that I did it in a way that wouldn't be so dangerous to me....but he never gave me the chance to talk to him about it.

I shouldn't jump to conclusions. It could have been anybody that called....but it seems awfully suspicious that they parked in front of my house....and it makes it quite clear to the children's parents that I had something to do with them being out here.