[googley]

I feel like no one cared. No one did anything to protect me. Instead I was left to deal with all the bad stuff on my own. My mom was emotionally abusive and my dad did nothing to protect me. No one ever did anything. Why didn't I deserve to be protected? No one cared. I tried to get help, but no one did anything. Instead it was my job to take care of everyone else.

I feel so alone right now. Totally totally alone.

[skeksi]

I hear you. You did deserve to be protected. I'm sorry nobody helped you. I know how painful it was to be left alone and hurt. You're not alone now, and now the only person you have to take care of is you.

[jazzy123456]

Look inside yourself and see that you are beautiful. that you have hope. that, at the end of the day, you have hope. when your backs against the wall don't think of falling but, realize the harder you fall, the stronger you will rise... dark is for a day but, light comes in the morning... you deserved to be protected, you deserved to be loved, you don't deserve the blame.....at all! be gentle with yourself, be gentle with your tears... your mom hurt you emotionally, usually people who hurt others are often hurting themselves in the process, maybe there is reason for her behavior, i do not mean she has an excuse, i just mean, maybe there is a deeper reason... usually finding that reason can give us the compassion we need to have to forgive and forgiveness is what helps heal us, not just validation but, forgiveness, we do this for ourselves, not for them... it may benefit them but, its for ourselves. now take care of yourself... and remember, for everything in life is usually broken before it is made whole again...think about it, whatever you cook, the ingredients are broken down, if a child plays with legos, it is broken before he creates something beautiful out of it, if a person wants to put together a machine, he has to reaarange all the broken pieces first, most things start off broken before they reach wholeness. thrive in the love that already exists within yourself. just because you can't see it now. just because you feel alone at the present moment, doesn't mean its still not there. lift up your head and smile. you are beautifully and wonderfully made.

Jazzy.

[Bill3]

Why didn't I deserve to be protected?

You did deserve to be protected. The others let you down.

I'm so sorry that you were not protected and now feel alone.

[Sannah]

Sounds like your parents were a mess. You definitely deserved better. Are you talking to your T about this?

[Gus1234U]

aaah Googley~~~ time to give yourself the care and love you didn't get when you were young and helpless. it is good to let oneself grieve over the losses we have had, and then there comes a time to dry the tears, for a little while at least, and let life back in. there are some excellent hosted groups here on PC that might be helpful to you in learning to feel loved, by yourself, first, then by others also. it's not so much that no one loves you, as that you can't feel it; perhaps because you are so busy feeling other things. we do have the ability to change how we feel ~! i hope you can find your way to love and laughter, to happiness... Gus

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((( googley )))))))))))))))

Googley...(((((darling))))...you deserve love and light and friendship

[Nupoet64]

(((((((Googley))))))) You DID deserve protection!! I am sorry it was not there for you! But you are amazing...you survived adn cared for others when they should ahve been caring for you!! You are strong adn brave adn determined!! You are amazing!!

[Elana05]

(((Dear Googley)))

You deserved to be loved and cared for.

[JustAPixie]

[miray]

(((((googley))))) you did deserve to be protected! I am sorry you had to go through that and just know you are not alone. You are safe here.