[Overcastbutclearing]

I am overwhelmed with begining all the work on my past abuse and can no longer deal with it.
I want to fly like a bird off the tallest building I can find and just watch my self glide in the air.
I need to get out.
I need to get out of this dirty, skanky skin.
I don't have much time left.
I really do think I have superpowers and I am about to warp into a "light" that only the good heroes can see.
I am losing my freaking minddddddddddddddddddd

[CedarS]

Do you have a call in to your therapist? Have you heard back yet?

[Overcastbutclearing]

I am trying. That is the best I can say. I know it will pass. I have rage, superpowers and deep seeded hurt inside of me.
I feel like a 12 year old girl being led to "that place".
I can smell the odors in that room, the sofa.
I can feel that bastards sweaty hand on me.
I ache dammit.

[CedarS]

You are trying and succeeding, you are surviving. I hope a helping person connects up with you soon.

Does the list 5 things technique help you at all? I used it recently to get myself back into the here and now. List what you smell, see, taste, touch, hear. In the present. I also take a warm comforting bath when I get achy.

Best wishes,
Sarah

[(JD)]

(((sj)))) If you become overwhelmed and feeling like it is all too much, be sure to tell your T!!! Sometimes you have to take it slower in session... and that's you're Ts job to make sure you don't become so overwhelmed. TC

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((sj)))))))))))))) I am sorry you are in such pain. Let your t know how overwhelmed you are feeling. She can slow it down for you so you will cope better. Please be safe.