[Brkthesilence11]

I feel awful. Although our relationship was dysfunctional it still kills me to hear he cheated on me. I've confronted him about it, and he said "leave me alone" and has not responded to anything ive said. We were together off and on for 2years. I'm so hurt by his rejection to explain how he could lie to me. How he could cheat on me. I just want answers. I got sucked into the awful cycle of abuse with him and shouldnt care...but i do. He was my best friend, lover and everyday plan. He broke my trust. Im so mad i dont know how to handle these emotions. WHY? How can someone truely cheat and have no remorse for their actions?

Originally Posted by Brkthesilence11

I feel awful. Although our relationship was dysfunctional it still kills me to hear he cheated on me. I've confronted him about it, and he said "leave me alone" and has not responded to anything ive said. We were together off and on for 2years. I'm so hurt by his rejection to explain how he could lie to me. How he could cheat on me. I just want answers. I got sucked into the awful cycle of abuse with him and shouldnt care...but i do. He was my best friend, lover and everyday plan. He broke my trust. Im so mad i dont know how to handle these emotions. WHY? How can someone truely cheat and have no remorse for their actions?

There is a good book by that same name!! "I Hate You; Don't leave Me" but I can't think of the author.
Maybe he has the issue with being faithful that has nothing to do with you at all.

[Sannah]

My interest is more in you then him. Why do you settle for so little for yourself? You deserve much better then this guy. He is abusive and cheats. What is holding you back from moving on?

[Mediator]

Originally Posted by Brkthesilence11

I feel awful. Although our relationship was dysfunctional it still kills me to hear he cheated on me. I've confronted him about it, and he said "leave me alone" and has not responded to anything ive said. We were together off and on for 2years. I'm so hurt by his rejection to explain how he could lie to me. How he could cheat on me. I just want answers. I got sucked into the awful cycle of abuse with him and shouldnt care...but i do. He was my best friend, lover and everyday plan. He broke my trust. Im so mad i dont know how to handle these emotions. WHY? How can someone truely cheat and have no remorse for their actions?

Brkthesilence
I just finished my daily post I could not believe how I could be so low. Maybe he was your best friend and maybe your everyday plan but do not let to do something as dormat from yourself as I did.
I wish you luck to see if you should leave him or no.
If you feel alone for it. I am here and I believe here is more as me.
Take care
Ivana

[Brkthesilence11]

Originally Posted by Sannah

My interest is more in you then him. Why do you settle for so little for yourself? You deserve much better then this guy. He is abusive and cheats. What is holding you back from moving on?

Thank you very much for that! It's funny because i cant seem to figure out that answer. I'm slowly seeing that it is ME who needs the help. He fits the profile of an abusive man...knowing this, i should just move on from it.

[Elana05]

Hi Brkthesilence11,

I can relate to these emotions that seem like to much to handle. I hate the deep internal pain.

Be gentle with yourself. Just keep taking care of you.

I have found therapy helpful as well as medication which takes away some of the pain and makes it easier to function daily. I have also found 12 step groups like ACoA helpful (if you think early family dysfunction may play a role in your actions today).

Sending supportive thoughts...

Elana